Right - so - I feel I have reasons but I won't start making excuses. I'm an addict and when I can't get I get very, very sick and have to miss work. Even though I am an addict, I'm honest. I would never steal, take advantage or hurt anyone. I work all the time just to support my habit and because I work all the time I never have time to kick. But basically what I wanted to ask you guys about is whether you have people that take advantage of you if so, how do you deal with it? I get where I can and I know that I pay more than most people.
That's not really the problem though, one person always tells me how grateful I ought to be that they are doing this for me even though I know it's not just for me and I pay out the nose, so it's not out of kindness and he's always leering and trying to grope me and asking me out and I'm so sick of it. I try to dress pretty much like a nun, wear things that make me look bad and it doesn't seem to make a difference. It's been getting worse and worse and I'm scared that soon I won't be able to fend it off and I'll have to insult the person and I won't have that source anymore.
The other person always takes advantage by stealing my money - taking my money but not giving me what I paid for and sometimes not even giving me anything at all. The thing is when you're sick you have no leverage, no options, you have to take the shit in hopes that the person will ultimately give you something.
Maybe I just don't know how to stand up for myself. I guess I just wondered - does this happen to other people with an opiate addiction or is it just me, is there something I could do differently?
Thanks to anyone who can help or who also wants to vent. I appreciate it.
That's not really the problem though, one person always tells me how grateful I ought to be that they are doing this for me even though I know it's not just for me and I pay out the nose, so it's not out of kindness and he's always leering and trying to grope me and asking me out and I'm so sick of it. I try to dress pretty much like a nun, wear things that make me look bad and it doesn't seem to make a difference. It's been getting worse and worse and I'm scared that soon I won't be able to fend it off and I'll have to insult the person and I won't have that source anymore.
The other person always takes advantage by stealing my money - taking my money but not giving me what I paid for and sometimes not even giving me anything at all. The thing is when you're sick you have no leverage, no options, you have to take the shit in hopes that the person will ultimately give you something.
Maybe I just don't know how to stand up for myself. I guess I just wondered - does this happen to other people with an opiate addiction or is it just me, is there something I could do differently?
Thanks to anyone who can help or who also wants to vent. I appreciate it.