"Drugs aren't bad. Kids are!" - Eminem
No really I think there are deeper issues. There's more to it than just enjoying the way E makes you feel. I don't think that drugs are necesarily a problem until they take over and consume your life. Perhaps it is due to the fact that it takes care of some very basic human needs. Not wants, but needs. Just what is this fool babbling about?
We all need certainty. We all need a base level of certainty just to function. Like if you were'nt certain the roof over your head wasn't going to cave in on you, you won't be paying any attention to this post. Doing E gives you certainty. You're certain by taking this you'll feel a certain way, because you've done it before and have references for it. However God does have a sense of humor and gave us a second need. A need for UNcertanty, called variety. You couldn't imagine eating your favorite food everyday for every meal could you? And drugs give you variety because every party is different, you meet different people, you have a different "trip". Another need we have is a need to feel significant, to feel that we are unique in some way. Maybe at parties you dress uniquely, dance uniquely, there are countless ways to be unique. But of course we have another need. A need to feel connected and loved. We all want to be liked by others, which makes the previous need a paradox. Fun huh? Raving gives you a sense of that because you feel connected to others. Whether it is though the common passion for the music, the thrill that dancing all night long gives you, or by the drugs you take, you feel connected to others, and they to you. Sound ridiculous? I'm not sure about other people's experiences, but usually when I meet people at a party, the question order usually goes like this: Hi~ Whats your name? Where ya from? Are you rolling tonite? If yes, what did you drop? Feeling of having something in common, also known as repoire. I've gone to parties where I went sober and talked to people that were rolling. When I told them I wasn't rolling that night, they either encouraged me to or were like "Oh, that's kool" and went about their business. No feeling of commonality, no bond. Of course this is all my opinion and you could think I'm full of shit. It's your opinion. =) As a raver (raving sober now for 3 months), I'm not hatin' I love raving and loved the way E made me feel. As many many more wiser people before me have said, "The answers you want come from within, not from the outside" or something like that, forgive me I'm paraphasing. Drugs never fix problems, they only offer a escape from reality, which we all could use sometimes, but when it invades and destroys your funtional world, then evil and uglyness prevails.
