Ugh good god I am anxious right now. My girlfriend just read about a new Corona variant that may be able to reinfect people and asked me to not go see anyone or do anything outside of the house until she gets vaccinated. I'm like dude, the county just told me I can't catch it or pass it on for 3 months at least now. She's like well I'll probably get the vaccine in the next month, come on. Then I reminded her that it will be 4 weeks between doses and then you're supposed to wait a month after that. I have band practice once a week, we have a new bass player, and we are trying to hit the ground running once we're able to do shows again. I have a commitment, we all have to do band or it won't work, as a 4 piece and me being keys especially, we can't even practice without me. I am willing to forego frivolous hanging out with friends but the band is more than that, yeah they're my friends, but music is my passion, all of our passion. I'm supposed to have practice tonight.
My girlfriend is so scared (has been the whole time, moreso than anyone else I know in real life). And when does it end? What if they say to stay home until 2022? Some people are already saying that. I simply. Cannot. Do that. I'm already depressed and anxious. I fucking ended up in the ER last year after 2 months of going nowhere from an overdose. I'm trying to not do drugs and it's fucking hard and I'm scared too, I'm scared of spending the next 2-3 months isolated as Spring rolls through. I just finished spending 2 weeks by myself because I got covid and it was fucking rough, I didn't even leave the house, didn't even see my girlfriend even though we live together. My bright spot to look forward to was today when I could go out again. The county told me I was good and couldn't pass it along, which is what my girlfriend is worried about since she didn't get it when I did. She was fully in support of it until this morning when she read some article. Look, covid is real, no doubt about that, it fucking sucked. But there is a ton of fear mongering too. They don't even know where that variant is or if it for sure reinfects people very often, or how long ago they got sick the first time (like after 3 months it's more likely to get reinfected with any strain, is the new strain more likely to reinfect you after 3 months? Not just point blank at any time? I get erring on the side of caution but she does not understand how difficult this is for me). I got pretty fucking sick and I just got better, all evidence I see points to my immunity being strong for long enough for her to get vaccinated before that goes away, she's in the next group.
We're not fighting about it but she told me to do some research and try to convince her and it was tense earlier, she doesn't usually exert as much force to try to make me do something she wants. I did some research, I have to work though. We're gonna take my cat in to the vet together soon and I'll bring it back up then. Ultimately I have to do me and I hope she's not too mad. I just can't lock down for another few months. It is not an option. I will agree to not do anything but band stuff but I don't think it's unreasonable to insist on getting together with the band to work on getting the new guy up to speed so that we don't have a period of couple of months of doing nothing and failing to hit the ground running when live music starts again. Particularly since we all already got it and have all just recovered and the new guy has been vaccinated already like a month and a half ago, as an essential worker.