Man, I'm just listening to Carl Hart on Joe Rogan's podcast. It's behind Spotify's paywall now but you guys should check it out if you get the chance. Really smart guy and a fucking hero for drug policy reform. Talks about how even though he enjoys using many drugs, he never buys them just because of how it would look for a prominent neuropharmacologist and advocate for legalisation of psychoactive substances to get into legal trouble, or just a situation where people could use it to discredit him... That's commitment to the cause for sure. Also says some interesting stuff about his occasional recreational heroin use, as well as deliberately getting addicted just to demonstrate that withdrawal is not life threatening... again... that's commitment. I'm gonna have to buy a few of his books.
I'll admit I was a little taken aback with his perspective on opiates, even though I know I wouldn't have been about a year ago, just because kratom really fucked my mind for a while. But, maybe I just have a fragile mind in some respects, obviously everyone is not the same and plenty of people do a lot harder opiates than I did a lot more often and are still able to function fine... heh, can't help thinking of you @Cosmic Charlie, you seem to manage your opiates pretty well for sure. ☺ On the other hand I did a little kratom for a few months, and ended up barely capable of working or even getting out of bed... I wonder why that is...
Anyway listening to this guy kinda made me think that I might need to carefully deprogram myself a little from being exposed to some harmful ideas during my really brief stint in online NA as a result of that brief but disproportionately headfucking kratom addiction. I am pretty easily lead I think and might have picked up a little groupthink despite my love for drugs immunising me to the worst of it.
Took some gabapentin today coz reasons and was really surprised to actually feel something from it, whereas previously I thought gabapentin did basically nothing for me. Tolerance break is working! Been thinking a fair bit about dissociatives I must admit, but that unfortunately would be over my self imposed imaginary line at the moment. Been thinking about which psychedelic I'll take next as well... that's not strictly over the (I realise fairly arbitrary sounding) line but, I'll give it another few months.
Actually was just listening to that Carl Hart podcast myself on my ride to work today got thru first hour so i will listen to more on the way home. He is a brilliant guy and i totay agree with his perspective on things. Giving people like him a platform as massive as the JRE is exactly what we need to allow change to begin to accelerate in this world. And i appreciate you viewing me as your Junky with his shit together i truly try to be as productive as possible each day and prove peoples misconceptions about drugs wrong. So far i think im at 13-14 grams of Kratom today and i still feel pretty good just got to work and im about to punch in soon just gotta catch my breath after the 6.2 mile ride. Tell you what i am in seriously good shape right now from the amount of cardio i do on a daily basis. If i told my coworkers i was heavily addicted to Opioids im sure it would really surprise them. Gonna wait like three more hours and then take one finally dose for the day, hope all of you are well i love you guys.