Sarah Marshall
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Sounds like you still like her none of my business though what would I know I’m just a girl
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Sarah Marshall
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I had a dream I got married. Funny right because the way things are going with this relationship that’s all it’ll ever be.
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No I fucking hate her... well, I guess I have calmed down. We split 6 years ago and were married and together for 12 years, since we were 18, until 30. She was horrible, abusive, she told me she was half a breath away from stabbing me to death after a fight one time, the fight started because she said I stacked the mixing bowls wrong. She tried to control me to the extent of what I believed and thought about things even. Then she yanked me around for 4 years and kept telling me she didn't want anything from me, and then manipulated me into paying for a bunch of stuff like health insurance. I finally served her with papers because it was going nowhere and suddenly she wanted half my stuff... I had to pay her $12,250 and I owe a lawyer thousands too. It was a horrible experience, I really and truly hated her, which I have never really felt towards anyone else ever. Now that it's over I just am glad to never have to deal with her again. Trying to let go of the hatred because it's toxic. It;'s working, slowly.
I've also been with a much kinder and better person for the last almost 5 years.
I've also been with a much kinder and better person for the last almost 5 years.
Sarah Marshall
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Well tha
Well that’s good your out of that abusive relationship and your better now she sounds like a bitchNo I fucking hate her... well, I guess I have calmed down. We split 6 years ago and were married and together for 12 years, since we were 18, until 30. She was horrible, abusive, she told me she was half a breath away from stabbing me to death after a fight one time, the fight started because she said I stacked the mixing bowls wrong. She tried to control me to the extent of what I believed and thought about things even. Then she yanked me around for 4 years and kept telling me she didn't want anything from me, and then manipulated me into paying for a bunch of stuff like health insurance. I finally served her with papers because it was going nowhere and suddenly she wanted half my stuff... I had to pay her $12,250 and I owe a lawyer thousands too. It was a horrible experience, I really and truly hated her, which I have never really felt towards anyone else ever. Now that it's over I just am glad to never have to deal with her again. Trying to let go of the hatred because it's toxic. It;'s working, slowly.
I've also been with a much kinder and better person for the last almost 5 years.
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I would say that yes, she is. I feel bad for her because it's the result of a rough childhood, she developed borderline personality disorder (never diagnosed but it matches 100% ). I think it sucks to be her but I can't respect that she takes it out on loved ones and projects her flaws onto other people rather than accepting and working on them. My girlfriend now has PTSD from her childhood which sucks but she is a kind soul and a great partner.
Sarah Marshall
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Aww how sweet that’s great you found someone else I’m happy for ya
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Ha ha, sometimes I swear that we dated the same woman! My ex told me that if she ever caught me cheating on her, she would "pick up the biggest bluntest object" that she could find and literally bash my brains in. (Not that I ever would, but she was insanely jealous and paranoid about those kinds of things.)
One time she kept me up arguing for three days straight because I disrespected her by accidentally walking in front of her on the way to my car (actually trying to be a gentleman by getting the door for her)!
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If anyone's ever seen movies like The Matrix, Total Recall, Deja Vu, Vanilla Sky or Inception, this is exactly what I went through last night. Grab some popcorn, folks; it's gonna be a long one...
Sep 2-3, 2019: "Virtual Reality Nightmare"
It actually started as a really funny videogame I was watching/playing that starred none other than porn star Ron Jeremy! He was recruiting women to do things like fight aliens or whatever. It was filled with a lot of adult humor and sexual innuendo.
At some point it turned into a virtual reality situation where I was actually living inside of this game and the people around me were like holograms or avatars. At one point I ran into Mr. Jeremy himself (or his likeness) and said, "This is the best videogame EVER!". Unfortunately, this is where it all went horribly wrong.
I realized that we were all trapped in this alternate reality and unable to escape. It basically resembled a large shopping mall, video arcade or movie theater. The visuals actually would have been really cool if the mood hadn't been so scary, because everything had an animated Disney Pixar sort of look to it.
Every time that I would try to leave out of one of the exits, I would find myself right back in the middle of it again. This happened countless times in more different ways than I can remember. Sometimes there were these digital cop/soldier dudes guarding the doors; other times I would get outside just to be teleported back into the center of this mall/hell all over again. I also saw everybody else running around, trying to get out and not being able to either.
Eventually it turned out that this was taking place in somewhere like Panama or South America, and that it was a part of some huge government conspiracy to basically keep us all as prisoners in our own minds. I could sort of see outside and it looked like a very primitive jungle-like place with child soldiers on motorbikes and all.
There were a million small details but way too many to list. For example, one guy kept getting a bag of weed planted on him to be arrested, and every time that he threw it out the window it would instantly appear back in his hand again. Everything had that kind of "time loop" feel to it. Things kept repeating endlessly that prevented us from leaving. The feeling was absolutely hopeless.
It actually turned lucid at the end but by then I thought that my dream was all just part of this whole horrible situation, so needless to say it wasn't enjoyable in any way.
(I woke up after only a few hours of sleep but was too unnerved to go back to bed.)
Sweet Dreams!!!
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Sep 2-3, 2019: "Virtual Reality Nightmare"
It actually started as a really funny videogame I was watching/playing that starred none other than porn star Ron Jeremy! He was recruiting women to do things like fight aliens or whatever. It was filled with a lot of adult humor and sexual innuendo.
At some point it turned into a virtual reality situation where I was actually living inside of this game and the people around me were like holograms or avatars. At one point I ran into Mr. Jeremy himself (or his likeness) and said, "This is the best videogame EVER!". Unfortunately, this is where it all went horribly wrong.
I realized that we were all trapped in this alternate reality and unable to escape. It basically resembled a large shopping mall, video arcade or movie theater. The visuals actually would have been really cool if the mood hadn't been so scary, because everything had an animated Disney Pixar sort of look to it.
Every time that I would try to leave out of one of the exits, I would find myself right back in the middle of it again. This happened countless times in more different ways than I can remember. Sometimes there were these digital cop/soldier dudes guarding the doors; other times I would get outside just to be teleported back into the center of this mall/hell all over again. I also saw everybody else running around, trying to get out and not being able to either.
Eventually it turned out that this was taking place in somewhere like Panama or South America, and that it was a part of some huge government conspiracy to basically keep us all as prisoners in our own minds. I could sort of see outside and it looked like a very primitive jungle-like place with child soldiers on motorbikes and all.
There were a million small details but way too many to list. For example, one guy kept getting a bag of weed planted on him to be arrested, and every time that he threw it out the window it would instantly appear back in his hand again. Everything had that kind of "time loop" feel to it. Things kept repeating endlessly that prevented us from leaving. The feeling was absolutely hopeless.
It actually turned lucid at the end but by then I thought that my dream was all just part of this whole horrible situation, so needless to say it wasn't enjoyable in any way.
(I woke up after only a few hours of sleep but was too unnerved to go back to bed.)
Sweet Dreams!!!
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I LOVE it when I have dreams like that! They're somewhat stressful at the time but my dream emotions are almost always blunted so mostly when I wake up I just like to marvel at how crazy the dream was. It's like having a really difficult trip (except less difficult), but then being glad you had the experience.
mtu mwendawazimu
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Last night i dreamt that i got the sales job i have a phone interview with next week. I was shadowing some kid and he didn't like me. The hiring manager sucked my dick though.
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Dreamt about 2 exes lol. Don't really remember much about it now other than the last one... I was saying something like "I thought you weren't really into me before" or something.
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mal3volent
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Anyone have any strategies to evict someone from your dreams?
mtu mwendawazimu
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Try not to think about them when awake/before bed.
During a dream though? Not sure. Dreams can be telling though - purposefully evicting someone is like ignoring the issue.
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Yeah it's my dead best friend. Not sure what to do other than ignore it really. Problem is shit shows up in your dreams whether you suppress it or not. Don't know what closure would be in this situation , no money for counseling obviously don't believe in prayer.
But he's like a constant presence in my dreams.
Last night I had been captured by some kind of cult and was being forced to serve them rotten meat of some kind. They were drinking out of goblets. My friend was sitting in the corner on the floor , face charred. Wouldn't look up.
mtu mwendawazimu
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Oh yeah in that case it's probably best to deal with head on like you said. I'm sure he's in peace and would want you to be too.
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I dreamed I was at a conference for diplomats and a guy representing the "Republic of Columbia" burst into the hall, marched up to another diplomat and started giving him what for.
I thought, "Republic of Columbia? What the deuce is that?"
I went to search for it and found out that it's a microstate somewhere along the northern end of the eastern seaboard. It seemed like a nice place to have a small autumn vacation so I figured I would go see it for myself. The whole country was just a few hundred acres and made up mostly of two adjacent buildings in a Tudor style of architecture, separated by a small canal.
I checked myself into an inn there, and everything seemed normal, but for the weird laws that generally promoted free speech except that music with lyrics about sodomy were specifically banned. I had a meal at the inn then crossed the canal to have a pint at the bar.
At the bar, I was sipping on a Transylvanian Screwdriver (plum brandy and blackcurrant juice) when a server came up to me and indicated a woman who wanted to meet me. I said OK and went to the floor where she was waiting. She was a striking blonde who invited me for a drink further along the wall by her friends at a long table. OK, let's go.
By the time we reached the table, she became a brunette with dark olive skin. I decided this was perfectly normal (dream logic). We didn't talk much, as she kept excusing herself to go stand by the entrance and peer at me with a puzzled look, as if though she didn't know what to make of me. I noticed this, and when she returned I said "I know the feeling, I get the same vibe from you."
"What do you mean?" She asked.
"I mean you remind me of someone I might have known."
At those words her eyes began to glow yellow and a menacing expression spread across her angelic face, which startled me and I woke up.
I thought, "Republic of Columbia? What the deuce is that?"
I went to search for it and found out that it's a microstate somewhere along the northern end of the eastern seaboard. It seemed like a nice place to have a small autumn vacation so I figured I would go see it for myself. The whole country was just a few hundred acres and made up mostly of two adjacent buildings in a Tudor style of architecture, separated by a small canal.
I checked myself into an inn there, and everything seemed normal, but for the weird laws that generally promoted free speech except that music with lyrics about sodomy were specifically banned. I had a meal at the inn then crossed the canal to have a pint at the bar.
At the bar, I was sipping on a Transylvanian Screwdriver (plum brandy and blackcurrant juice) when a server came up to me and indicated a woman who wanted to meet me. I said OK and went to the floor where she was waiting. She was a striking blonde who invited me for a drink further along the wall by her friends at a long table. OK, let's go.
By the time we reached the table, she became a brunette with dark olive skin. I decided this was perfectly normal (dream logic). We didn't talk much, as she kept excusing herself to go stand by the entrance and peer at me with a puzzled look, as if though she didn't know what to make of me. I noticed this, and when she returned I said "I know the feeling, I get the same vibe from you."
"What do you mean?" She asked.
"I mean you remind me of someone I might have known."
At those words her eyes began to glow yellow and a menacing expression spread across her angelic face, which startled me and I woke up.
Jabberwocky
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I've had a butt-ton of dreams this past week so I'll just try to give the highlights here...
Sep 3-4, 2019: "Mom Rushed To Hospital/Parking Lot Brawl"
My parents and I were eating McDonald's in our old van and my mom said that she was choking or having trouble breathing from what she described as two cysts in her mouth. My dad rushed her to the local hospital and they wheeled her into the operating room. A female nurse came out and said that she might not survive the surgery and that even if she did, it could be cancerous.
My dad started freaking out and talking really crazy so a male doctor gave him some Ativan to calm down. I was in a complete panic as well and asked for some, but the guy said that he didn't have time because he wanted to wash his legs for some reason! We finally learned that my mom came through from the surgery okay and that the cysts were benign.
As we were leaving, a mass fight broke out in the parking lot and spread to the hospital itself. Young men and women were attacking each other with guns, knives, pipes and fists. I helped a few people get in the building and locked the door behind us, but there was already fighting going on inside as well. One bullet grazed me on the stomach but it didn't appear to be too serious.
Sep 6-7, 2019: "Girl Possessed"
I was in someone's house and there was a young woman there who was possessed by demons. She looked sort of the way that Linda Blair does in "The Exorcist" when her appearance is just beginning to change. Her eyes took on a kind of translucent grayish color if I stared at them too long. I was trying to avoid looking at her while also pretending that I wasn't aware of what was going on, because I felt that it was my best protection until I was able to leave. At one point I closed my eyes but could still see her clearly through my eyelids. This really freaked me out and I decided to just run away as fast as I could.
I made it to some marshland behind the house and it turned into a really strange half-movie/half-real scene that's kind of hard to explain: The girl had somehow become possessed because she was upset over her male friend's death. The guy had set the marsh on fire with a flaming crossbow and apparently died in the process. It was believed that if somebody could make her accept the guy's death then the demon would leave her body. (Actually, this makes perfect sense from the perspective of everybody having to "face their demons".)
Sep 8-9, 2019: "Ice Storm"
I was working at my old corporate office job and clocked out for the day. There had been an ice storm outside so I decided to take a little red plastic kids' sled home instead of driving, and propelled myself down the main road with my hands. I stopped at the local mall for some hot coffee and a bite to eat but most of the food court was closed.
I ran into a young lady that I used to work with at the office and we started talking. She suddenly started kissing me passionately and I was pleasantly surprised (in real life there was never anything romantic between us), but also slightly reluctant because I'm not really looking for a relationship at the moment. She said something about needing me to save her from making bad decisions and hanging out with the wrong people, which made me realize that she was way more serious than I wanted to be.
I ended up walking through the local downtown green at night and taking some absolutely amazing pictures of everything encased in ice.
Sweet Dreams!!!
Dreamflyer
Sep 3-4, 2019: "Mom Rushed To Hospital/Parking Lot Brawl"
My parents and I were eating McDonald's in our old van and my mom said that she was choking or having trouble breathing from what she described as two cysts in her mouth. My dad rushed her to the local hospital and they wheeled her into the operating room. A female nurse came out and said that she might not survive the surgery and that even if she did, it could be cancerous.
My dad started freaking out and talking really crazy so a male doctor gave him some Ativan to calm down. I was in a complete panic as well and asked for some, but the guy said that he didn't have time because he wanted to wash his legs for some reason! We finally learned that my mom came through from the surgery okay and that the cysts were benign.
As we were leaving, a mass fight broke out in the parking lot and spread to the hospital itself. Young men and women were attacking each other with guns, knives, pipes and fists. I helped a few people get in the building and locked the door behind us, but there was already fighting going on inside as well. One bullet grazed me on the stomach but it didn't appear to be too serious.
Sep 6-7, 2019: "Girl Possessed"
I was in someone's house and there was a young woman there who was possessed by demons. She looked sort of the way that Linda Blair does in "The Exorcist" when her appearance is just beginning to change. Her eyes took on a kind of translucent grayish color if I stared at them too long. I was trying to avoid looking at her while also pretending that I wasn't aware of what was going on, because I felt that it was my best protection until I was able to leave. At one point I closed my eyes but could still see her clearly through my eyelids. This really freaked me out and I decided to just run away as fast as I could.
I made it to some marshland behind the house and it turned into a really strange half-movie/half-real scene that's kind of hard to explain: The girl had somehow become possessed because she was upset over her male friend's death. The guy had set the marsh on fire with a flaming crossbow and apparently died in the process. It was believed that if somebody could make her accept the guy's death then the demon would leave her body. (Actually, this makes perfect sense from the perspective of everybody having to "face their demons".)
Sep 8-9, 2019: "Ice Storm"
I was working at my old corporate office job and clocked out for the day. There had been an ice storm outside so I decided to take a little red plastic kids' sled home instead of driving, and propelled myself down the main road with my hands. I stopped at the local mall for some hot coffee and a bite to eat but most of the food court was closed.
I ran into a young lady that I used to work with at the office and we started talking. She suddenly started kissing me passionately and I was pleasantly surprised (in real life there was never anything romantic between us), but also slightly reluctant because I'm not really looking for a relationship at the moment. She said something about needing me to save her from making bad decisions and hanging out with the wrong people, which made me realize that she was way more serious than I wanted to be.
I ended up walking through the local downtown green at night and taking some absolutely amazing pictures of everything encased in ice.
Sweet Dreams!!!
Dreamflyer
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