Day 15: Rough night and rough morning so far. May need a bit of caffeine too get going today. No sleeping pills last night and only managed a couple of restless hours of sleep. Kept having a reoccurring dream that someone broke into my garage and stole everything in it--I mean everything: tools, equipment, shelves, light fixtures, garage door openers, the trash bin, snow shovels, etc. Exact same dream over and over. I kept waking me up in a cold sweat. Not sure what that means--maybe I should change the locks on the doors....anyone want to take a shot at dream interpretation?
Feeling really tired and legs seem more achy today. Also have a pounding headache and a lot of congestion/sneezing. Mentally/emotionally I don't feel horrible aside from that spacey "off" feeling. And, I have a ringing in my ears and a slight fluttering sensation in my vision today. However, I'm not really surprised since I remember this happening last time: There were good days and bad days, but eventually you stop noticing the bad days and the good days just become normal days. Just have to focus and lean into it. Another cold cloudy day here--had a heavy frost last night. Supposed to be mid-60's and rain tomorrow which would be a 40 degree temperature swing then drop back into the 20's. I really am looking forward to heading south. (Mental note: Do not ever go cold turkey withdrawal when the weather is shitty--wait until Spring/Summer. Or, better yet just don't go through it again...).
Lower back is really bothering me today. I took a long 4 mile walk yesterday and was out and about moving all day, but nothing strenuous that I can think of. I don;t think it is WD related--it happens a lot. Getting old sucks.
But, I did get up early and put a pot roast in the crock pot. We don't eat much red meat anymore but it was on sale and sounded good. Figured an occasional meal of beef won't hurt anything (aside form the cow). Plus my daughter is home form school for break and she said she wanted some home cooking so I have managed to make dinner the past few nights. It's been a while since I've done any cooking sine it is usually only my wife and I at home but it is kind therapeutic in a way. Definitely something to do later in recovery when you can actually look at food without wanting throw up...