Lolli,
Thank you again for your answer. I have read the first talk several times now but it is a lot of material to absorb. I could spend an entire lifetime and still not see all the nuances and implications, which seems only natural as one is "cultivating" and not "brought to awakening" in an abrupt act.
Fortunately I live in a city where there are three active practice groups relatively near me so I will approach them and start cultivation in earnest. I have been formally initiated in several of the "Western Mystery" groups, most of which are operating at lower levels of knowledge. I have been working and learning almost my entire lifetime (I am over 65 y/o) towards attaining the higher levels of awareness, particularly in opening the third eye.
In fact, since I really do very few drugs anymore, I wondered why I was frequenting Blue Light. Perhaps I was here just to read your message.
Thank you again.