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Your "Last Horrah"

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For the many of us who have been to rehab, had to get drug tested for probation or jobs, O.D'd so stopped, or we just plain quitting......
What did you consume for your last horrah?
I figure some last horrahs that were followed by periods of clean time and then a relapse can go in this thread too.

My last horrah was pretty boring. I had already cut back to using opiates on the weekends since I was getting tested every friday for treatment court. The had me in an out-patient program that tested me randomly, but there tests were not supervised so I used a friends piss. After 6 months the out-patient lady realized that they were prescribing me xanax, and it wasn't showing up on the tests so she figured it out. For some odd reason the supervised drug tests didn't test for benzos but whatever.
So I was getting sentenced to inpatient rehab, so before court I took the rest of my grandmas vicodins, and did 2 bags of H. For some reason they made me piss at the treatment court place even though I told them not to bother, It was def positive. I was too high to piss anyways.
 
I had so many "Last Horrahs" that I lost count. Most notable was for my 21st birthday before I went clean for 4 months. A heroin buffet, ativan, and xanax, strapped with suboxone for afterwards so i wouldn't have the stressful thought of withdrawl on mind either.
 
I think my last horrah was the night before my parents dragged me to the sub clinic. I was on about 8 somas, 200mg of oxycodone, 4mg of alprazolam and some dxm (only to potentiate). Funny part was I wasn't even that high.
 
My last hoorah's were never my last. I've made countless proclamations that this hit was going to be my last and those hits never are. The only times I had prolonged sobriety my last use was never my planned last use, I'd just end up getting arrested/going to rehab. And I've never gotten super blasted before going in to rehab.

But for like 3-4 months everyday was going to be my last hit. I'd shoot like 2-3 bags of east coast heroin and a bag of coke in one shot. And I'd be fucking amazing...quite the combo. I've had too many last hoorah's to remember, but if my memory serves correct most of those were me nodding the fuck out all night long, doing all the dope I had cuz I was going to quit (who hasn't done this?), sleeping for an hour or two and then going out and copping more dope. Yeah so my insane doped up ideas of quitting were me doing like 5 bags of dope throughout the day, then being pissed I did it all and I was sick, so I'd go buy more.

I think it's just one of those silly things addicts do to keep using. The idea that the last time you get high, you need to get absolutely shit faced. Cuz I know the last time I did heroin it was ok but it wasn't amazing or anything and part of me wants my last time to be the best....but it doesn't work like that IME. Between the cost and potentially OD'ing it's just not worth it.
 
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I think it's just one of those silly things addicts do to keep using. The idea that the last time you get high, you need to get absolutely shit faced. Cuz I know the last time I did heroin it was ok but it wasn't amazing or anything and part of me wants my last time to be the best....but it doesn't work like that IME. Between the cost and potentially OD'ing it's just not worth it.
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I feel you man, I had the same lingering thought for a year and half (wanting to feel it fully, cause my last shot was a cotton shot) and I almost OD'd when I finally acted on it. So fuck that shit. Like you said, it's just straight up not worth it. I've got too much going for me right now to throw it all away for that lifestyle again.
 
It's not your last time, or you wouldn't even care about getting in a last hoorah... go crazy, we all have, just not too crazy.
 
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I feel you man, I had the same lingering thought for a year and half (wanting to feel it fully, cause my last shot was a cotton shot) and I almost OD'd when I finally acted on it. So fuck that shit. Like you said, it's just straight up not worth it. I've got too much going for me right now to throw it all away for that lifestyle again.
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Yeah, I think I'm in the same place, I know my last hurrah won't be one and I don't have high expectations of what I'd get out of this last "last hurrah." I've lost my faith in dope. It will never be what I want it to be. Only one way to go from here.
 
I've had a last hoorah with ketamine. I had 12 grams of Ketamine at one point that I was planning to not do all by myself, but besides one person trying about 150 mgs for their first time I pretty much did the rest. It was a 2-3 week binge pretty much (maybe one or 2 days of abstinence) A mix of snorting and injecting.

I went through the K but spilled some in the dresser(no clothes in it). When I came to the end of the stash and was done scraping out the baggies i had, i scraped all the K in that dresser and dove straw first into the dresser drawer to snort the last 150 or so mgs i had.

I knew I wanted to quit then. About 2 weeks later I had a pretty profound experience with San Pedro that was more euphoric than any Ketamine experience i've had and it basically helped me quit. I tried K one more time but it's been about 6-7 months since the dresser incident and it's not really appealed to me after the Mescaline experience.

Ketamine doesn't sound like quite the same struggle as opiates but it can definitely become expensive
 
Shit, I dont think I can remember my "last" hoorah.

I believe my last psychedelic hoorah, my friends and I consumed copious amounts of LSD, Nitrous, and Cannabis
 
I've found that when trying to quit something, or when you just have to stop, the last hoorah/hurrah, blowout, whatever, never works. Its best to just quietly say goodbye.

Admittedly I didn't read this thread so I don't fully know what its about.
 
My last hoorah was New Years...

Which lasted from NYE to the day after new years day. (1/2)

Did so much, in such little time--- i had to sleep for 3 days to fully recover.

Now Im in school, and my life consists of homework I dont want to do, and all night studying because of procrastination. Yay for sobriety.
 
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