sgtteamkill
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- Oct 5, 2007
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Well im goin to try and explain my situation as well as i can without going into much detail. For starters i just turned 20 and anyone who can offer me advice please i beg you to give your help.
It all started my senior year, roughly 3 years ago, when i smoked some weed and had a severe panic attack. That happened 2 more times smoking weed and then finally it started happening all the time. In a nutshell in the end it got so bad i became bedridden with anxiety and dropped out of school. I think its also important to add i did experiment with opiates occasionally.
Well after many a doctors and many a prescriptions turned down the anxiety turned into SEVERE depression, this is where things get hazy, at some point in this time i got really addicted to methadone, both my parents take it and i was taking about 5 a day. I cant remember what came first the depression or the addiction. My doc also prescribed me Vyvanse for the depression because i asked, this i dont know was best.
Well after about 2 years of the worst shit ive ever been through i finally weaned myself off of the methadone, quit taking vyvanse, and got back to life. I felt great! I was happy and out and about daily seeing my friends again. At this time I started drinking daily, and i met my wonderful girlfriend. Well after a month or so i fucked up...my friend had some morphine and i started taking opiates again.
This quickly spiraled downhill to a full fledged addiction again, and back to those feelings of wanting to just be alone in my room and away from the world. I told my parents and they put me on a methadone "regiment" to wean me off again, this time FOR GOOD.
Well, now im down to about 2-3 methadone a day, without it i am completly immobile, tired and just all around out of it. It also only works for about 4 hours. Well today is the day we decided it was time to get off of this shit for good, im ready to live, i missed out on my senior year, prom, walking with my friends at grad and who knows what else all i know is all i have now is my wonderful girlfriend who has been there thru thick and thin.
Basically im wanting to know how should i stop this? Should i go cold turkey? Wean? How quickly? And most importantly, after being off the drug how long until i can experience happyness and joy again? I miss living, really all im looking for is opinions, experiences and support. I cant imagine a harder time ahead of me in my life
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It all started my senior year, roughly 3 years ago, when i smoked some weed and had a severe panic attack. That happened 2 more times smoking weed and then finally it started happening all the time. In a nutshell in the end it got so bad i became bedridden with anxiety and dropped out of school. I think its also important to add i did experiment with opiates occasionally.
Well after many a doctors and many a prescriptions turned down the anxiety turned into SEVERE depression, this is where things get hazy, at some point in this time i got really addicted to methadone, both my parents take it and i was taking about 5 a day. I cant remember what came first the depression or the addiction. My doc also prescribed me Vyvanse for the depression because i asked, this i dont know was best.
Well after about 2 years of the worst shit ive ever been through i finally weaned myself off of the methadone, quit taking vyvanse, and got back to life. I felt great! I was happy and out and about daily seeing my friends again. At this time I started drinking daily, and i met my wonderful girlfriend. Well after a month or so i fucked up...my friend had some morphine and i started taking opiates again.
This quickly spiraled downhill to a full fledged addiction again, and back to those feelings of wanting to just be alone in my room and away from the world. I told my parents and they put me on a methadone "regiment" to wean me off again, this time FOR GOOD.
Well, now im down to about 2-3 methadone a day, without it i am completly immobile, tired and just all around out of it. It also only works for about 4 hours. Well today is the day we decided it was time to get off of this shit for good, im ready to live, i missed out on my senior year, prom, walking with my friends at grad and who knows what else all i know is all i have now is my wonderful girlfriend who has been there thru thick and thin.
Basically im wanting to know how should i stop this? Should i go cold turkey? Wean? How quickly? And most importantly, after being off the drug how long until i can experience happyness and joy again? I miss living, really all im looking for is opinions, experiences and support. I cant imagine a harder time ahead of me in my life
