Start w one, or half to see how they affect you.
Holdback made a valid point re having delusions of sobriety while being fucked off your gourd.
That doesn't happen to me, I'm aware of how messed up I am. My husband, on the other hand is not aware. He wants to call everyone, including his mother while he's slurring and obnoxious, while I'm trying to wrestle the phone out of his hand.
Or he wants to go out in public! It's bad. After being frustrated by this stuff for a long time, I realized he doesn't realize how wrecked he is. Be mindful of that.
Start slow. Do it when you're able to stay home and have no pressing responsibilities. You can always add more.
And yes, blacking out and redosing. That's another very real aspect of benzo use. You'll come back to reality and your bottle will be missing alot of pills, that you have no recollection of taking.
Or, you wake up in jail and have no idea how, why, etc. It's not fun to pay a fine or do time in jail for something you did while blacked out.
Be careful. Realize benzos are powerful. I had my Dr stop writing me #90 1mg Xanax with 2 refills a month. I had him change it to #30 a month.
I realized that I was doing risky things, blacking out, etc. Before I ended up hurting or killing someone else or myself, I grabbed the reins. Im on Subutex, and benzos are a no-no. I take them occasionally.
Good luck OP.