I was rx'd Lorazepam for a few years but only used it in binge-y spurts because I'm one of the odd ones out who feels Lorazepam as being nearly indistinguishable from Zolpidem. I'd hallucinate like a fucking madman on it, and compared to benzos I've always found drinking to be a waste of time. When offered alcohol though I've drank sometimes huge amounts, and it's saved me from serotonin syndrome a couple times from mixing MAOIs and HBWR. Absinthe, whiskey, rum, and gin were things that have downregulated me during ayahuasca experiences that got too hot thermally, I would see my body temp go over 102.5 and hit the physical abort switch via GABA agonism. It doesn't really stop the trip but it rounds it out.
Once I took a double digit amount of bromazolam and my fiancee took about 2/3 that amount (still double digits) in flualprazolam. I knocked out quickly but he ate I think 12 bars, blacking out on the fourth? He seemingly was rummaging for drugs (NBOMEs I think) and now I cannot distinguish between my gel tabs of 25B-NBOH or 25I-NBOMe. It cracks me up, but benzos have often led to this reaction. At an even further point though, the sedation returns which is super peculiar. Especially as a teenager, eating fistfuls of bars, chewing them up or insufflating them because I was a dumbass, once allegedly bottling all but three out of a hundred Farmaprams when I was a sophomore in high school. I was virtually comatose according to everybody else, only moving to eat more bars.
A minor car accident occurred while I was on bromazolam but we found no noticeable damage. I was not blacked out at this point, and honestly it was nice to drive without HPPD which is typically pretty severe for me, a couple loose handfuls of heady mushrooms like Panaeolus cyanescens is roughly an equivalent potency, maybe 400ug of LSD or so. When I'm barred out, I have no HPPD whatsoever, and the pileup affected a ton of other vehicles, the fact that I nor anyone else I collided with had any noticeable damage is quite fortunate. I thought I was completely fucking sober. I also didn't notice how geeked my fiancee was, he was let go that day and Ubered home (despite having canceled the trip three separate times). A true fucking saint named Heng who drives for Uber really pulled through there. My fiancee also lost the box mod and his taser case that day, but we found the box mod underneath the bed eventually.
2C-B and etizolam is my favorite "hippie speedball" of a stimulant and depressant, especially with some of the drugs that are more like nonspecific enhancers, things such as cannabis, soma, PCP, or ketamine. NEP and 2-FXE/CanKet/2F-O-PCE are also a specifically good mix imo.
A question in response for somebody else with a past of bodying huge amounts of benzos, have you noticed that some of the drugs I mentioned using earlier habitually (cannabis, carisoprodol or arylcyclohexylamines) make addiction far more difficult, there's a constant rotation based on current needs for me at least. Currently kratom, promethazine, tizanidine, 2C-B, allylescaline, DOM/DOB/DOC, miprocin, psilacetin, and fungi are the most useful. Took about a quarter gram of 2C-B the other night, also dosing 2.25mg of DOB and 4mg of DOC (half oral half intranasal) a few nights ago, it did what any wicked high phenethylamine dose does where I was cyclically just dropping to the ground wherever I was, in a DMT breakthrough-like experience, communing with my ancestors and then just waking up on a shag carpet high as hell.
TLDR; This is a very high rant about a time that a similar paradoxical reaction occurred.
