I have had a pretty bad life but always managed to stay away from drug's. Until recently, when i moved into my dad's hes a massive alcoholic and has got me drinking daily and smoking weed on a daily basis. This does not help when me and my girl friend of 2 and half years break up. Iv never had such bad depression all i want to do is go find something to relive my pain. Iv been contemplating oxy's since apparently they will relax you like a mother fucker which is exactly what i need. I'm in such a hole that i cant see the top, i have no job and i'm living with my broke alcoholic dad that cant pay the bills. I don't eat on a regular basis because we are to broke to buy food. I just got out of a bar tending school and i'm trying to get a job around town since my DJ career isn't lifting off. I don't know why but all i am thinking about is a way to alter my reality so that its not bad anymore i.e. drugs and weed and booz isn't working anymore. Iv been keeping away but once i get some money i'm afraid i'm going to fall.