do you guys (who are using mxe and/or ket with regularity) feel that the overall 'change' in one's daily mindset and emotions caused from regularly using these drugs is a beneficial adjustment to your daily mindset...? and also, does the 'ego softening' effects of regularly disassociating ones self have benefit as a 'launch pad' for psychedelic and/or meditative transcendent experiences...?
Oh yes, daily use certainly sticks around for a while. And negative or positive? I'd say overwhelmingly positive. I'm usually anxiety ridden anytime I'm in public. Nowadays my worst bouts of anxiety last 15 minutes. I'm comfortable with myself in public, and although I'm still not good with strangers I don't get overly concerned every moment I'm around them. As for it's effects on my private life, I'm often in a great mood with no discernable reason. I'm less often frustrated. As far as it's effects on psychedelics: I've grown a spiritual connection to an artist and when I listen to his music on psychedelics it's indescribable. Sometimes when listening to him sober I'll be sucked into a hyper-euphoric state reminiscent of MXE, but psychedelics it's transcendent anytime I take a moment to listen. As far as mental effects go: A little "out-there"ness that sticks around, I forgot words or my line of thought on occasion, and misspell more frequently. I do have fairly severe adult ADHD which makes most of these problems occur regardless (besides misspelling, I'm usually great at spelling), but they've become slightly more frequent.
I've found that if I'm taking MXE more than once a week I need a trip at least once a month to keep my mind anchored and in check. For a while I wasn't doing psychedelics but was doing MXE daily and frankly I was lost in there. I didn't do anything too crazy or ruin my life or anything, I was actually very functional, but I was not self aware and was losing my connection to reality. When I started taking AMT bimonthly with a friend about 3 months ago I found that it completed me, allowed me to anchor myself and keep my mindset more stable and centered. Without tripping semi frequently to get my mind right I become too lost in the state and it would be hard to control my use or gain as much therapeutic value from it as I do now.
As far as choosing dissociatives as a passenger...well, dissociatives just click with me. One of the few drugs that allow me to just slow down and enjoy being and occasionally not being. Opiates don't do it for me, the high is too subtle and straightforward, my mind cuts right through it and makes them hard to enjoy. Psychedelics are great but aren't forgiving when you abuse them. Alcohol wrecks my stomach and makes me feel like shit, doesn't really help my racing mind. Weed is nice sometimes, but it really triggers my anxiety and makes me hyper aware of--everything--, generally exacerbates the moment-to-moment symptoms of ADHD and I find it hard to enjoy it. Dissociatives are perfect in that the high doesn't stifle my mind, it occupies it perfectly, outside input becomes a lot less distracting, and I can get lost in music or an activity without needing 3 other things happening at once to allow me to focused on it. And the effects of daily MXE, though they make some symptoms of ADHD worse (impulsiveness, trouble accessing and categorizing memories, scatterbrain tendencies) they mediate some other symptoms alot. I generally need less stimulation to concentrate and am less overwhelmed by stimulation, I am able to generally socialize more successfully even if I don't feel engaged (I still struggle with this one, but noticeable improvement), my attention span is more stable so I'm less easily distracted and I can multitask easier. I'm also much more in control of when I zone into something and when I zone out of everything, I'm more able to do them intentionally and less likely to get completely lost in what I'm doing/thinking. A lot less natural thought loops too, and I cannot describe how godly that is.