Would love to have an adoption- need it.

[Harmreduxadvocate]

I watched my paternal grandfather in 1997 and then years later (2004) my father commit suicide, both as a result of acute benzo withdrawal and acute psychosis as a result... Followed by the overdose death of my mother in 2012. She tried to break through 200mg of methadone by injecting morphine until she "felt something". What she felt was a massive MI and I had to drive 5 hours to Jacksonville as next of Kin as I was the only authorized signature to remove her life support. I've learned nothing and continue to use. DOCs are hydromorphone, oxycodone, Xanax, Adderall and Baclofen. I want to be adopted. It's important to me that I feel on the level with a person who understands. That is simply the best solution for me, through trial and error, being very disappointed in docs and their very concerning lack of knowledge. My ultimate demise lies without harm reduction and solid advise. I have 3 daughters. I'm a successful luxury hotel operator in Miami Beach and it's by the grace of some higher being that I haven't been fired... Or dead over the whole of 2016.
In short- looking for help. But also looking for a place that will allow me to impart my knowledge in an effort to save a life, make someone feel understood and cared for and to ultimately improve my situation through helping others in my position that I truly care for.