I'm sure he would be thankful for that bro.
But isn't this the same situation where you talked to her mom and the mother told you to stay away from her daughter or something? I could be mixing it up with someone else but if I remember correctly it was you. And at that point I was about 99% sure that marked a clear end to the relationship.
You keep giving this girl more and more power with every sentence you type and every thought that passes through your brain. When 2 people get together they pool their self esteem together, so you always feel better when you're with that person. But that feeling is also bullshit because its not your real selfesteem. The way you're feeling now is only a representation of how insecure you were before meeting this girl. She obviously helps distract you from w/e it is you hate about yourself.
But you also have to realize that she is susceptible to the SAME EXACT weaknesses you are. ALL humans have an essential need to belong. And right now she merely has the upperhand because you gave it to her.
You NEED to STOP talking to her. If she calls DON'T fucking pick up. If she texts/emails keep telling her "I'm busy". **IF** you show her any anger at all, that will feel like a compliment to her, you have to understand that. Love is not what your parents taught you or what you learned by watching movies, its a business exchange pure and simple, thats why it often can get ugly at times. If you had played your cards out right earlier, SHE would have been the one obsessing over you, SHE would have been the one wanting to kill herself right now.
But for WHATEVER reason in the world its obvious that you think shes better than you are. And she has NO REASON to ever desire you if thats how you think about yourself. How can she possibly be attracted to a man who doesn't give 1 measily fuck about himself and will endure infinite torture in some sick attempt to fill his own voids? That type of attitude is going to make it EASIER and EASIER for her to look the other way and forget you that much sooner. But if she KNOWS you are in pain, you can use the right now to your advantage. Unless shes a sociopath, theres a very good chance she felt a nice wave of guilt after causing that circumstance. You said she texted you (post 14) but never told us what happened.
Is she texting you in response to a text you sent? Or is she feeling guilty? Because EITHER FUCKING WAY, STOP ACTING INTERESTED IN HER. She is NOT "Juliet", she is a flawed, fucked up creature like every other person on this planet. Her emotions can be toyed with the same exact way shes toying with yours.
But untill you are able to man up and have some self respect, you will NEVER be able to take control back.
If 20 smoking hot girls were standing in front of you naked right now I don't care who you are your mind would NOT be focused on this girl. You prob feel somewhere inside like because she doesn't desire you anymore, that must mean every other woman in this world doesn't desire you. ALL YOU REALLY WANT, is control. To have the decision to be with her if its what YOU WANT.
BUT YOU HAD HER, and you didn't give a shit, cause you kept using drugs and lost her. But now all a sudden cause shes gone shes important? Fuck that. Snap back into reality bro. You are warping the shit out of your mind and doing all this to yourself. If she gave herself back to you'd be happy for not even one week and that would be it. By week 2 you'd likely be using drugs again. This is more about control then it is true love, if the love was ever there in the first place, you wouldn't have treated it like it was disposable. Now shes treating you like you're disposable, what a surprise.
Although if it was me personally I would headfuck this girl into oblivion untill she came crawling back beggn, you DO NOT have the experience to see her for what she is. You are young, you lack experience, and you think shes your one and only soul mate - shes NOT. A man is suppose to be strong, hold his ground, be smart and deliberate with his decisions. Right now you'd prob chop your own testicles off to have her back.
Thats NOT a result of how good a person she is, thats a result of your low self esteem. You're not a piece of shit, you're not hopeless, you CAN and WILL find a girl 100 times fucking better that will put this bitch to shame.
This is the time to start excercising some strength, or else your mind is going to be taken where the fuck this girl wants it to be. Become angry, not by beating up that douchebag, but by showing how little you care for this chick. Do it long enough and strongly enough and very quickly you will put her own self esteem to the test. But at this point you have already given her so much power that I consider it a hopeless cause.
She can blink at you and you'll wanna go on and on about how much you love her. But do NOT forget, you had that chance, if she was ever what you thought she was, you wouldn't have made the decision to use drugs in the first place. You are hung up on control. You want drugs, and you want her. You already proved you couldn't have both. So please move on. You can complain/bitch about how much you hate her but I'm not gonna sit here and listen to how little you care about your own self. Thats bullshit, have some self respect. Otherwise whats the point of even being in a relationship in the first place? I simply have no idea how you expect someone to desire you, when you basically hate yourself. You shouldn't be dating in the first place till you fix that aspect of who you are.
Sometimes, it feels like life is just taking a shit on us, but like another poster said -- living well is the best revenge. People who are so cruel to do what she did enjoy seeing you suffer. Live well, better yourself and that is how you get over her, find someone better, and hopefully one day she'll realize what she did. That kind of stuff comes back around to bite you in the butt.
