Many family get togethers I was silent and lazy because I was dope sick. That sucked. I've used the "I'm just sleepy" excuse about 5000 embarrassing times.
The worst one is easy. I was 16, desperate for opiates, and very, very stupid. I was stuck across the country at a relative's house full of the whole extended family. I found a load of tramadol and cyclobenzaprine in a relative's cabinet late one night, and took 2 of each, and felt nothing. The next morning I took 4 of each, and felt nothing for 2 hours, so took 4 more. You can see where this is going. Before I know it I'm whipping my head out of a dream/nod, talking to nonexistant friends about getting McDonalds.
I have 2 memories of the next 24 hours: first, my cousin staring at me in shock at the dinner table, no idea why. Second, my dad isolating me in a bedroom for being fucked up. He was that scary kid of angry where he was red and fuming but silent because family. I cried like a little bitch out of the overwhelming shame and tried to give him a desperate, slobbery hug, which he sidestepped.
Never asked a family member about that week, never care to. I have many days, weeks, and months I've spent blacked out doing embarassing stuff. Not ready to confront that shame.
Actually, my parents have seen me in much worse states, culminating in coming out of a 3 month etizolam blackout in the admitting room of detox, shaking like a leaf from withdrawals, begging them not to put me in the detox in knew wasn't equipped to handle a benzo habit of my size. That got dark. They told me it was this or the -20° streets of minneapolis in January, with no clothes and no money. I writhed on the floor and begged them not to let me die in there. That was horribly pathetic.
Now I don't know which is worse