Take the time necessary to give yourself a well-deserved pat on the back, man. You're up against a lot,
hondarider - Yet, instead of folding, you are doing all that you can with what you have. Very simply, hat is all that you can do.
I feel for you. I truly do.
![:\](https://bluelight.org/xf/BL_Images/Orig_Emoji/wrygrin.gif "wry grin :\")
Being an opiate addict for 10 years, I have experienced withdrawal from all types of opiates and opioids. The torrent of emotions that accompanies the distressing physicality of the experience really amplifies the pain. I am very impressed with all of the tactics you have used already to keep your body as much in check as possible.
Might I suggest a liquid diet? You won't be able to hold any type of solid food for a few days with the dosages you were taking.
Despite the fact that you're going to have insomnia, do your best to lay in bed. It's sort of akin to having normal insomnia (which I do, in
spades!!). The basic idea is that, although you're not actually
sleeping, you're body is still resting. Let your eyes close - they must be sore from crying
It breaks me heart when I hear that someone is actively withdrawing from these insidious chemicals.
My father, who is a clinical psychologist and employs this technique in practice, taught me a breathing exercise I hadn't really considered.
Typically, I inhale for 4 seconds through my nostrils, hold the air in my upper chest for 6 seconds, and then (as though I were blowing out a candle) exhale for 10-12 seconds (this is usually how long it takes for me to expel all the air in my lungs). Then repeat.
But my father said to me, "Why on Earth are you holding it in your upper chest, with your diaphragm constricted?"
I told him that I believed holding air in my upper chest would increase the oxygen diffusion while the air was contained.
HE suggested trying to breathe rhythmically (as I had been), but instead, to breathe in such that my stomach kind of expands, or puffs out. He claimed that THIS method of rhythmic breathing was more practical and effective than mine (which I had learned from Kundalini Yoga Meditation), because rhythmic breathing his way increased the levels of CO2 in the blood, thereby inducing tranquility.
Well, wouldn't you know it... it works. It really does.
Keep us updated - If the conversation in this thread is helping to distract you, then I encourage you not only to check back frequently, but also to explore more thoroughly the rest of what Bluelight has to offer by way of different forums.
Healthy Living and
Sex, Love & Relationships, aside from
The Dark Side, are my favorite forums to explore because of the diversity of discussion. It can keep me well occupied for hours and hours.
And, trust me, we're happy to have you
here, in The Dark Side - Despite the terrible circumstances that brought you to create this thread in the first place. Your struggle is your own - and you will be victorious. Worthy to mention, however, that your struggle is someone else's inspiration. Enduring pain like this without copping something illegal on the street or begging others for drugs is, at the very least, both impressive and courageous.
When it's over, you're going to feel like the survivor of an airplane crash. The world might likely look a little different - and so, too, might your attitude towards decreasing your oxycodone dose (even a little), or (provided that you legitimately need it, which it sounds overwhelmingly that you do!) switching to an opioid analgesic that requires you to consume less drug per day with a longer duration of action. As long as you're not abusing the drugs, I might even recommend a Fentanyl patch so that you're not constantly gobbling down enough oxycodone, per day, to kill 2-3 opiate-naive people. And aside from all that, if it takes
that much oxycodone to quell your symptoms, then there's even more compelling evidence that a medication switch is justified.
I wish you well - I care that you get well. You're going to need to just go through the motions while your body achieves equilibrium again. But for now, as my friend used to say to me in my earliest days of getting sober (I was a mess), "You're okay. You're safe. For right now, you're okay and you're safe. And you are loved." Boy. Did that ever get me through some tough times.
Please update us as soon as you can, my fellow Bluelighter!
Wishing you the speediest of recoveries
~ Vaya
