Withdrawals

I'm feeling like utter shit. I haven't smoked meth for a couple of days and I'm now passing the "coming down" stage and entering the dreaded "withdrawal" stage. Getting restless, anxious, depressed, grumpy as hell, blah blah blah.

The worst part is that I have $200 tucked away, all ready to spend, but I'm meeting a friend early next week who's a recovering addict and I don't wanna be using (or obviously coming down) while I'm hanging out with her. It ain't easy, but I'm gonna try to hang in there. There's an NA meeting tonight which I'm planning to go to for a bit of support.

I've been dosing up on clonazepam to numb the withdrawals, which does help. Unfortunately I'm so tolerant to this stuff that I need a huge dose (much more than my prescribed dose) for it to work. Still, benzos are a godsend when you're in the middle of meth withdrawals. If I didn't have any, I'd be going totally crazy right about now.

 

How are you doing today, Sweet-P? Are you holding up okay? Did you manage to hold onto that $200 and stay clean?

Reading your posts and blog is really interesting and helpful for me, by the way. You're really well spoken. My sister's an addict, so I've been paying close attention to certain posters around here so I can understand her better.

Hugs!

 

Well... I'm surviving lol. And I've still got the $200 safely tucked away.

The only reason I haven't gone and scored a bag is because I'm meeting a fellow Bluelighter tomorrow who's a recovering addict herself, and I don't want to trigger her by being high or coming down while we're hanging out.

Anyway, I'm glad you've found my posts helpful. That means a lot to me!

*big hugs*

 

'The only reason I haven't gone and scored a bag is because I'm meeting a fellow Bluelighter tomorrow who's a recovering addict herself, and I don't want to trigger her by being high or coming down while we're hanging out.'

See how special you are? That's important and shows your strength and empathy. I'm glad you're hrtr on BL

 

^ Thank you. That made me smile for the first time today.

 

You can do it P! I have faith in you.

Remember, sleep, eat, and do what you can. Take it one day at a time.

 

That's HUGE that you respect you friends recovery! What a good friend,wish I had one like that.