Withdrawals or Something Worse...?

[teenagetragedy]

Hi, been a while since I've been online. I'll get right to it. Basically, about a month or so ago I was going through my grandparent's closet helping them clean out and I came across an old container with several boxes of fentanyl patches (my grandpa has had dozens of serious surgeries throughout his life and is always in pain) anyway I asked him what he wanted me to do with them and he told me they were old and I could just throw them away. Well, stupid me decided it would be fun to try them, not knowing how serious of an opiate they were. So for about 4 weeks I was ripping them into small pieces and chewing them daily. Once I realized I was starting to get low, I decided I should probably "ween myself off" so to speak. So I started chewing smaller and smaller pieces and less frequently. Well, I guess it didn't do much help because I am on day 5 without any type of drug and I feel absolutely terrible. I will wake up in the middle of the night extreeeemely hot and my heart will be pounding out of my chest. Last night, I got in the shower twice upon waking up and put the water on ice cold because I thought it was the only thing that could possibly help. It is already bad enough during the day, but for some reason it gets 10x as worse during the night. It it getting to the point where it is unbearable. I've had anxiety problems in the past, but this is like severe body anxiety, yet I'm not thinking of anything scary, nor have I had any big life changes recently. I'm assuming these are withdrawal symptoms but I'm just not sure. I was only on the drug for a month tops, maybe 3 weeks. I know this is the consequence I must pay for fucking around with such a serious drug, but I am desperate for anyone's help or advice at this point. My mom has noticed the symptoms as well, as they are very difficult for me to hide, and she has been begging me to go to the ER. She has no idea I've ever experimented with any type of drug ever, and I am so scared that the doctors will give me a drug test and my mother will find out the scary truth (I am turning 18 in 2 weeks but as for now I am 17 so I think they would be required to share the results with my legal guardian.) I keep telling her it's not that bad and I don't need to see a doctor but it really is that bad. To the point where I just cannot do anything, and I feel absolutely helpless. If any of you have had similar experiences with this sort of thing, or any advice, PLEASE comment. I need all the help I can get. Thanks so much. xx

 

[jammin83]

Yup. Welcome to opiate withdrawal. Fun, eh?

Do yourself a favor, learn from this and don't touch the stuff after this. As time goes on each withdrawal gets a little bit worse. You aren't in any physical danger from opiate withdrawal. I would wait it out, you should start feeling better in a few days. You're also lucky you didn't OD on fent. It's quite easy to do.

There are drugs that can ease the misery but I doubt you could get a hold of them unless you can get xanax or something. If you can get neurontin that would help. I would stay away from immodium as it can prolong things a bit.

 

[woamotive]

Fentanyl is an extremely potent opiate. Sounds like your body has no doubt become dependant on it. What you're going through is indeed withdrawals. You have choices.... Either get otc meds to help cope with your symptoms or check yourself into a detox and be treated there. I'm not sure if you smoke weed or not but if so, that'd help some. If you don't I do not advocate using illicit drugs to deal with fentanyl wds.

Check out the opiate withdrawal thread. I'm at work, and working a sandblaster rigjht now otherwise I'd link you. Somebody else?

I use immodium for the shits
Gabapentin for restless legs
A benzo for anxiety (do not begin taking benzos regularly esp if not familiar with them as withdrawals are horrendous and can be life threatening)
Weed for insomnia and most all symptoms
An otc pain reliever for joint/muscle discomfort
Benadryl can either prove helpful for anxiety or can make restless legs worse

It may be a good idea to see your doctor, if you have a good relationship with him or her. Fentanyl withdrawals can be extraordinarily uncomfortable but they WILL end. Showers/baths help a lot. Move around, stretch hour muscles, do minor exercise if you can.

 

[teenagetragedy]

Thank you both for replying. Yeah I have been taking Benadryl to help me sleep, but no I don't smoke weed regularly. I do smoke cigs and that temporarily helps anxious feelings but going through a pack a day isn't very ethical. I'm just gonna hold it out. It's gotten a little better over the last couple hours but I'm not getting my hopes up because it always gets worse at night. And yeah Jammin, there was one day where I seriously thought I had OD'd. It was very scary but luckily I woke up the next day. Of course the first thing I did was crawl right back to it because that's how stupid I am. Anyway, thank you both again. I appreciate the advice.

 

[jammin83]

No problem glad you are okay. You should improve soon. Hang in there. Many of us have been through it many times. Be smart and stay away from now on. Its not worth it.

Next time come to bl before you start ingesting random drugs from the grandparents stash. You really could have died.