Candy_Raver
Bluelighter
In the past I have experienced a physical addiction to opiates. Went from a pill habit to a IV black tar heroin habit. I ended up going to rehab, staying off that stuff, and been clean for over a year.
I figured after its been so long it would be safe to do some oxy and told myself it wouldn't hurt to do it just one more time.
Well 7 days ago I picked up 30mg oxycodone IR, crushed up the tablet and snorted it. I was surprised how high I got from the dose, this is day 1. Well next day(day 2) I made up some excuse to do it just one more time. Did another 30mgs. The next day (day 3) I somehow convinced myself to do it again, but 30mgs didn't do it for me, I did 60mgs, because 30mgs wasn't getting me as high. Well the day (day 4) it was a Friday, and convinced myself well its a friday night and I have nothing else better to do so I went and copped then railed 60mgs. The next day (day5) I told myself I'll do one more time, and upped by dose to 90mgs. Because the 60mgs wasn't cutting it anymore. So on day 5 I did 90mgs.
The next day 18 hours after my last dose I felt mildly sick. I felt mild aches throughout my body, my nose my runny, I felt abnormally cold, I kept sneezing, I was moody, anxious and all I could think of was " man life would be so much better if I just had another hit of whatever opiates"
That evening I ended up taking some xanax, which helped me sleep, and took away my anxiety, but it did nothing to erase the flu like feeling.
I woke up this morning, and felt the same as I felt yesterday. Same feeling and I had no motivational to do anything, except for thinking about how I can get my next dose, the only thing that was in the back of my mind was " if I got a hit of opiates things would be instantly better"
Today I tested this to see if I somehow caught a cold or if it was WD. I went out and copped some morphine, came back crushed up 15mgs, and up my nose. I felt 110% better, with all bad physical and psychological feelings gone. I ended up snorting another 15mgs and I'm mildly buzzed.
So is a 5 day opiate binge enough to push a previously opiate dependent back into WD even despite being clean for over 1 year? I was also shocked to see how much my opiate tolerance skyrocketed after just using for a few days.
-PLUR
I figured after its been so long it would be safe to do some oxy and told myself it wouldn't hurt to do it just one more time.
Well 7 days ago I picked up 30mg oxycodone IR, crushed up the tablet and snorted it. I was surprised how high I got from the dose, this is day 1. Well next day(day 2) I made up some excuse to do it just one more time. Did another 30mgs. The next day (day 3) I somehow convinced myself to do it again, but 30mgs didn't do it for me, I did 60mgs, because 30mgs wasn't getting me as high. Well the day (day 4) it was a Friday, and convinced myself well its a friday night and I have nothing else better to do so I went and copped then railed 60mgs. The next day (day5) I told myself I'll do one more time, and upped by dose to 90mgs. Because the 60mgs wasn't cutting it anymore. So on day 5 I did 90mgs.
The next day 18 hours after my last dose I felt mildly sick. I felt mild aches throughout my body, my nose my runny, I felt abnormally cold, I kept sneezing, I was moody, anxious and all I could think of was " man life would be so much better if I just had another hit of whatever opiates"
That evening I ended up taking some xanax, which helped me sleep, and took away my anxiety, but it did nothing to erase the flu like feeling.
I woke up this morning, and felt the same as I felt yesterday. Same feeling and I had no motivational to do anything, except for thinking about how I can get my next dose, the only thing that was in the back of my mind was " if I got a hit of opiates things would be instantly better"
Today I tested this to see if I somehow caught a cold or if it was WD. I went out and copped some morphine, came back crushed up 15mgs, and up my nose. I felt 110% better, with all bad physical and psychological feelings gone. I ended up snorting another 15mgs and I'm mildly buzzed.
So is a 5 day opiate binge enough to push a previously opiate dependent back into WD even despite being clean for over 1 year? I was also shocked to see how much my opiate tolerance skyrocketed after just using for a few days.
-PLUR
