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Withdrawal: @36hrs

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TRANSLTR

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First off I want to say I've been a member of BL for years, but out of fear of someone who I know in real life reading this post, I have created this anonymous account.

I don't really have a question to ask or anything; I guess the main reason why I'm posting this is for support. I don't like going to NA meetings and no one who knows me, knows about my problem. This is the only place I can talk about it.

I am addicted to poppy seed tea. I use 60oz a day (30oz in the day time and 30oz at night). I have been doing this for exactly one year now. I would say these seeds are average quality; I've had some that were twice as strong and I've also had some that were 10x weaker. I've been addicted to heroin in the past and poppy seed tea a previous time.

The times that I have successfully quit opiates were always forced on me, either by no more means, or going to jail. This time is a little different though... I make a decent living and I have a wonderful girlfriend who I live with. It is draining me financially and just the effort that it takes to go buy them everyday. The worst part though, to me, is lying to my girlfriend and sneaking behind her back. She knows I had a history with drugs, but has no idea I am currently using... Just that fact alone makes me feel like a piece of shit. I really want to stop.

I'm at 36 hours now. Luckily, I have never really gotten too many physical symptoms. Depression though, is always the one that kills me. My feet kill me if I stand for more than 10 minutes. I don't really have nausea or diarrhea, but I have zero appetite; I couldn't eat if my life depended on it (ironic, because it does). I don't have RLS, but I do have a weird feeling in my legs... A sort of like tingling. I am hyper sensitive to cold weather. General body aches and pains. Mild anxiety.

I keep telling myself once I get to 72 hours, I should be over the hump and it should be downhill from there. I failed at 60 hours on my best attempt. We'll see how this one goes, I feel like I might actually do it this time. Thanks for being here, BL.
 
I was in the same boat as you, no one new about my habit so I couldn't talk to anyone about it. I just told everyone it was a virus while i was w/d. I read success stories on here and kept telling myself I was doing it for my family.
Stay positive and think of a positive outcome and you will succeed.

Good luck you can do it.
 
I am now on hour 66 and am actually feeling like I just might be throught it. I am at work and by the time I am off, I will have over 72 hours. I feel very good about that. I had to use about 36mg of loperimide per day, which seemed to actually help a lot. I'm not sure if it was just placebo or what, because I've used loperimide before and it didn't do anything for me.
 
TRANSLTR said:
First off I want to say I've been a member of BL for years, but out of fear of someone who I know in real life reading this post, I have created this anonymous account.

I don't really have a question to ask or anything; I guess the main reason why I'm posting this is for support. I don't like going to NA meetings and no one who knows me, knows about my problem. This is the only place I can talk about it.

I am addicted to poppy seed tea. I use 60oz a day (30oz in the day time and 30oz at night). I have been doing this for exactly one year now. I would say these seeds are average quality; I've had some that were twice as strong and I've also had some that were 10x weaker. I've been addicted to heroin in the past and poppy seed tea a previous time.

The times that I have successfully quit opiates were always forced on me, either by no more means, or going to jail. This time is a little different though... I make a decent living and I have a wonderful girlfriend who I live with. It is draining me financially and just the effort that it takes to go buy them everyday. The worst part though, to me, is lying to my girlfriend and sneaking behind her back. She knows I had a history with drugs, but has no idea I am currently using... Just that fact alone makes me feel like a piece of shit. I really want to stop.

I'm at 36 hours now. Luckily, I have never really gotten too many physical symptoms. Depression though, is always the one that kills me. My feet kill me if I stand for more than 10 minutes. I don't really have nausea or diarrhea, but I have zero appetite; I couldn't eat if my life depended on it (ironic, because it does). I don't have RLS, but I do have a weird feeling in my legs... A sort of like tingling. I am hyper sensitive to cold weather. General body aches and pains. Mild anxiety.

I keep telling myself once I get to 72 hours, I should be over the hump and it should be downhill from there. I failed at 60 hours on my best attempt. We'll see how this one goes, I feel like I might actually do it this time. Thanks for being here, BL.
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The one time I managed to quit cold turkey after 72 hours I was feeling much better stick in their mate you are so close to coming out the other side.
 
just fyi - RLS is a common opiate withdrawal prob - making sleep almost impossible. Hang in there man, within a day you'll start to feel BETTER , not worse.
 
hang in there bud ibelive u can do it i know u can its no cake walk but is doable.....keep it up im pulling 4 you.
 
Magnesium supplements really helped with the mental part of the withdrawls for me. It helped calmed my anxiety and the unrealistic thoughts circling around and around. There is no toxicity levels since your body does not store it. My doctor recommended it at night to help with sleep (natural muscle relaxer) and take as much as you can until you get diarreah then back off one pill then take that dose every day. It should help, I know it helped for me. It is also absorbed through the skin, so you can try taking an epson salt bath.

Good Luck and congrats for your progress so far!!!!!!!!!!!
 
I'd assume that poppy seeds and pods are similar. You get a trade off when it comes to withdrawals, because of long half-life your WDs last longer, however this also makes the WDs less severe. Poppy Pods respond well to tapering due to this. If the OP is still around and wasn't able to make it the first time than I would suggest figuring out a way to taper next time. Even a quick 5 to 7 day taper can make a big difference, well at least it did with me when getting off pods.
 
So, here is a long over due update: I failed; but not at first.

I had made it to one week clean, all physical symptoms were gone and I had that feeling, you know the one you get where you realize you've beaten the WD and you've literally climbed Mt. Everest? I had that feeling. It felt fucken great!

But, on the 8th day, I figured I owed myself a little treat... You know where this is going. It didn't right away go back to twice a day use, but over the course of 2 weeks and I was right back to where I had been. And I'm still there. But it's time now, I feel it really is time. I didn't the first time, fucked up and am back to square one. I have learned from my mistakes.

I'm sorry for not keeping you guys updated but it was a sort of guilty-conscious type of thing. Everyone was rooting me on and saying I could do it and all that, and I did; but then I messed it all up. I've been reading another thread on here from shady4091 who is in a similar predictament to my own. He has encouraged me to do it this time and post about it. He started off strong, and slipped up a little bit but still posted his progress regardless... I didn't. I just went away like a coward.

Here we go Bluelight, it's time to do this once and for all! Right now I am at 12 hours and feel fine, but I know tomorrow when I wake up I will be at 24 hours and the WD's will be kicking in. I WILL keep you updated! Thanks for all the support!
 
Hey man, so good to hear from another Poppy-Seed Tea addict! I'm glad, if anything that my thread encouraged you to give it another go. It's fucking tough and I'm far from being free of it and I've stupidly just traded off one addiction for another but change is in the air, for both of us and I know it's going to happen. Slip ups, falls, skinned knees, whatever happens I'm not going to give up and it doesn't sound like you are either.

Don't beat yourself up for not updating, it was hard as FUCK to confess when I gave in, I thought about just ditching but the support here is unreal, and we need it. Best of luck to you man and I'll be in touch for sure!
 
^ plus you know you can get thru the withdrawl :-)

only a six month habit this time, not a year =D

got some ideas about how you are going to stay off the tea long term?
 
TRANSLTR and Shady, you guys are awesome and have my full respect. You are both so determined - it's far too easy to let one stumble cause you to give up trying, but not you two. I admire your attitude so much and I know you can both kick this! :D <3

However - if you do stumble again, don't feel guilty, you've not let us down, you've not let yourselves down - it's a hard thing you are doing, everyone slips sometimes. The key is you don't let it stop you from trying again, and you should be proud of that, not ashamed :)
 
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