Why?

[CARESS]

I sometimes sit and ask myself why?
Why are we allowed to feel true love and touch the sky if only for a moment. Then as the feather floats on the wind...the moment ceases and the heartbeat slows as it prepares for the breaking to follow.
I sometimes cry and ask myself why?
Why is it that as humans we can sometimes become listless and yearn for greener pastures? And sometimes in search of the greener fields, we sacrifice our love relationships and sometimes our sanity.
I sometimes laugh and ask myself why?
Why was I such a fool, the court jester performing before such a king, yet never fully allowed to enter your court as queen. I remain a joke and a passing fancy.
I sometimes exhale and ask myself why?
Why couldn't I see the devastation all around me as I danced around our maypole romance? You were sad and I couldn't see it. Love blinded me to your pain and I was lost in my own love and happiness with you.
But then I realize that love is a gamble and the prizes are set aside for the risk takers. Through you I experienced so much joy and for that, I am grateful. But as the cards were played and bets placed, I lost your presence in my life. But I will never regret the risk, for the priceless memories are my prize.
Be blessed, be happy, be loved.
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To Eric - never forget and never regret.
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Bluelighters, I have missed many of you and have also missed the ability to pour my heart out in this forum. Thank you for the opportunity.
Caress

 

[Angelight]

you have no idea how excited i just got when i saw you posted in here! Cin this was beautiful, just like everything else you write. You are one of the strongest women i have ever known, i can say that in all truthfullness. Be strong sweetie, hang in there, and like i said you will get a break one day...no one desrves it like you do. I miss you and love you.
love always,
ange
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~*~"you've got to dance like nobody's watching and love like its never going to hurt"

 

[cherub]

Sis,
I love you and miss you greatly,, I am glad to see you have posted though if your expression at this time are not as happy I would like to hear from you,,
you are always in my thoughts and prays my twin you are never far from my mind!
love
cin
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" Stay with me just for today and let your soul come rest for a minute. "

 

[CARESS]

Never fear, this too shall pass. And each moment I gain much ground.
My friends, thank you both for your comforting words. They are much appreciated...as I shall always appreciate you.
Love Above All Else,
Caress

 

[Binkie]

I like it *shrug* I dunno what else to say
love ya
A
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The more you run over a dead cat the flatter it gets...

 

[Zennie]

muah!
that's all i have to say