Jabberwocky
Frumious Bandersnatch
I have been in coma for 2 weeks for sepsis. I have been clinically dead from overdose of U-47700. I have been stabbed in the back, in words literal meaning, when i was eating blood thinning medication from sepsis.
It is so easy to let go of it. This world goes around just fine without you. Why would you be scared of death? Your relatives? You're not there to see their pain, it doesn't matter. Life is just a cycle of shit. I meet a girl, i fuck, i cheat, relationship brokes up and i find a new girl. I get addicted, i rehab, then i get addicted again. What the fuck? There is no point in life, so i would suggest just laughing at the insanity of the world. Don't get depressed about the state of politics, climate change debates, brokeups, anything. Just laugh. It will all repeat itself.
I am existential nihilist and pessimist. I used to be hedonistic nihilist, what in my mind means that you try to get euphoria/good feeling without caring about consequenses.
I was dating one girl back in the days and she told me that i seem like the one cop in True Detective season one. I watched the series and i loved his Schopenhauer philosophy. He also is kinda dirty cop, who likes to use violence to meet his ends and manipulation to get suspects in corner. He is also drug user, so it's no miracle that the girl thinks i seem like him. I can't really tell do i, or do i not seem so much like him, but i like his quotes.
Funny thing about this girl. It was our first date. I was walking to library, where we were supposed to meet. Suddendly two drug cops, who looked like junkies in civil clothes came to me and started searching me and asking who i am going to meet. Then 2 cops cars came, one drive in front of me and one behind me. So 4 more cops came there and looked out my information. Then we had to wait the girl, so she could testify that i was waiting for a date, not a fucking drug deal. I had some coke on my socks, but cops didnt find it. Lucky me.
It is so easy to let go of it. This world goes around just fine without you. Why would you be scared of death? Your relatives? You're not there to see their pain, it doesn't matter. Life is just a cycle of shit. I meet a girl, i fuck, i cheat, relationship brokes up and i find a new girl. I get addicted, i rehab, then i get addicted again. What the fuck? There is no point in life, so i would suggest just laughing at the insanity of the world. Don't get depressed about the state of politics, climate change debates, brokeups, anything. Just laugh. It will all repeat itself.
I am existential nihilist and pessimist. I used to be hedonistic nihilist, what in my mind means that you try to get euphoria/good feeling without caring about consequenses.
I was dating one girl back in the days and she told me that i seem like the one cop in True Detective season one. I watched the series and i loved his Schopenhauer philosophy. He also is kinda dirty cop, who likes to use violence to meet his ends and manipulation to get suspects in corner. He is also drug user, so it's no miracle that the girl thinks i seem like him. I can't really tell do i, or do i not seem so much like him, but i like his quotes.
Funny thing about this girl. It was our first date. I was walking to library, where we were supposed to meet. Suddendly two drug cops, who looked like junkies in civil clothes came to me and started searching me and asking who i am going to meet. Then 2 cops cars came, one drive in front of me and one behind me. So 4 more cops came there and looked out my information. Then we had to wait the girl, so she could testify that i was waiting for a date, not a fucking drug deal. I had some coke on my socks, but cops didnt find it. Lucky me.
