You should maybe consider making some decisions before you decide to use. If its like that it would probably be better to buy more instead of doing 20 rinses. I wouldn't want to stick myself more than 3 or 4 times a day in hardcore active addiction and I was addicted to pain medicine and heroin but used other drug iv as well.
IV itself is very engulfing, it will surround you and fuck your life up proper mate, I am not kidding. If you must do it, please do it as safe as possible. That is usually the difference between a sore arm and the occasional infection and death and amputation. You have no idea how bad a cocaine miss can be and shooting into an artery is worse than a miss, it is sending it away from your heart to the very outer parts of your body and really were you do not want it to be.
It can go so fast from a hit to an artery to needing amputation, sometimes hours. I have seen many people pass and some lose limbs. It is a sad thing. I have lost people close to me, good people, people that used with a fuckload better technique than you. You are lucky to be alive and still in one piece.
I honestly think you will enjoy it more if you take it easy. It is kinda pointless to shoot basically nothing but vinegar.
Also shooting coke ain't no joke when it comes to infection risks. It can build up in a vein even if you shoot it proper and that can require very painful surgery.
I almost died from coke building up and having it removed. It was one of the scariest moments of my life when I woke up from surgery. I didn't need to take it that far in terms of use but at the rate I was going it was inevitable. I honestly was in a bad place emotionally but it didn't seem that way with the amount of drugs I used.
So even clean now I am still recovering from what happpened for going on a year. i am almost recovered but it fucked up my life. The surgery was painful, it was traumatic to some degree, mostly mental for me. Being put under for surgery is not fun and the amount of pain medication I was given in the hospital and none given when I left put me in the position of being strung out on opiates again so it was a bitch to recover from.
So please be careful. I shared something I don't like to even think about. I am saying you can reduce the harm you do. I have seen people sit there for hours milking cottons and getting agitated and all tracked out. I just did large shots, which is dangerous but spreading it out over more shots is more chance of infection.
I think I got the infection just using near someone who definitly had a staph infection and probably worse. Well she had parasites, not someone I would fuck with your dick but she bought it for me so I would do it with her. I never shared needles and still got sick, it could have been worse. I think she probably is hiv positive and I am so glad I don't have hiv or hepatitis.
Still a brutal staff infection is something you have to go to the hopsital and usually get antibiotics iv for a good week and it gets so bad you are begging them to cut you open but they want it to come out on its own if possible. I literally have cut myself open due to pain from iv infections and one time I ended up worse and had to go to the er because the infection didn't go away, I didn't have antibiotics strong enough even though I had drained the wound.
Self surgery is beyond stupid, it is depeaperate, unecessarry, and avoidable by going to a hospital or surgeon. You could fuck up your medical file and if you ever had pain, good luck talking drs into treating it.
So if you keep this up, I would be willing to be a very large sum of money that you will get an infection if you do not already have one. Hitting an artery can put you in the position of possibly losing a limb rather quickly after you do it, I never did it but the time span is short and you are supposed to seek medical attention.
This is something you can't really lie about and you would be lucky to find a doctor willing to sweep it under the rug but you might get some slack.
When is the last time you hit an artery? Why would you use an artery anyways, I kinda want to know, it hurts and is so very dangerous? Do you not understand you have veins and no one who ivs hits arteries, well not the people that stay alive.
Shooting cocaine is already a risky proposition.
As far as the original topic. Smoking crack, despite the health risk, is very enjoyable to some people. I find if you smoke a large amount it last a very long time and is very strong. It is euphoric, numbs physical pain and emotional pain. It is a very mentally addictive substance to say the least.
Rats will choose cocaine over sex or food. They will even take cocaine until they die given the oppurtunity. This type of research is not done on people. Oh rats will walk across an electric floor to get cocaine and they won't do that every time for heroin but for cocaine, they will do anything in the situations researchers have provided and their is much research.
Cocaine is addictive because it is a good feeling drug, at least can be, depends on the person. I would advise against feind habits as it will diminish your experience and put you at a far greater health risk. It is also kinda illegal in some places. It is not socially accepted. I think you should get what I am saying.
OT: I did it in the past because it made me feel good, made my dick hard, I liked to fuck on it, I was already addicted to opiates and it worked as a substitute and is cheap, it also was something I did with opiates, It is a drug you can enjoy and reduce the risk by not injecting and not taking too much, a heart attack is a very real possiblility.
I had a friend die of a speedball overdose and it was the cocaine. It was a horrific death and it saddens me to even think about it. It left my friend a widower. He lost his wife and their kids lost their mother. She was a good person. She was new to iv cocaine and died, its sad. I wasn't around or I would have spoke to her about it if I had known she was doing it. It was a fucking tragedy and I rarely get emotional.
It is hard to know someone died of a cocaine overdose if it was someone you knew and even liked as a person let alone was close to. I also had a lover die from an abcess she hid. She ended up in a coma and died of sepsis. I don't know the details, I wasn't sleeping with her then but we saw one another from time to time and I didn't know she even shot up because she was so against it most her life.
That was the one of the hardest friends to lose because I was so close to her. There was a time when we were dating and we stayed friends and lovers. The fact the last time I saw her in person and she was fine and then the next time I see her is her tombstone. That is a very real thing. So if anyone cares about you, it is not fair to them.
You don't want to die that way even if you do not care about life. I do know things can get better if you work towards it. You can stop. You could be more responsbile. I really am sorry for giving you a hard time but would you rather just say, go die, I don't care, that is stupid and that is that?
No way, I am going to tell you the truth and hopefully you listen to some of it and maybe it could save your life or a limb here.