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Why, why, why, can't depression pills be like this!!

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ErikEverhard

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I have been suffering from severe depression and anxiety for years now, and had never turned to recreational drugs until last year. Did cocaine and roxy's for about a year now off and on definitely not everyday. Finally hit me about 4 months ago that cocaine is definitely not for me, because if I am alone and do it the come down makes my anxiety pure hell a million times worse so I stopped the cocaine. One thing I haven't stopped is the 20 mg roxys. I guess I do about 3-4 a week sometimes less. But thing is when I do them of course I get that warm nice feeling, but also I get a clear mind able to deal with problems and worries. The problems are still there but I am able to handle them.
My mind is "free" of the depression and garbage. Why in the world can't depression pills make you feel this way!!!!!!!!!!!
I have been on Cymbalta for about 2 months and it has helped, but the depression is still there, it is just stuck in the back of my mind. Also, I have been prescribed Xanax 4 mg a day, which on the days I have a roxy I do not even need the Xanax at all.
Damn why cant depression pills be made this way?
 
Sorry but what are Roxy's?

(I'm only acquainted with benzos really when it comes to pharmaceuticals).

But I feel the same way about benzos. They 100% eliminate anxiety and depression. It's just a shame that continued use of these things isn't remotely sustainable.
 
Depression and anxiety are 10/10 the worst thing this "World" or "Life" can throw at you.. it's like the teach you how to hate your own fucking brain.. I'm sorry you deal with shit like that and i'm happy you're on something to help you, I hope the Xanax work and if they don't? Abuse the fuck out of them. Do you find being in that being good to understand the problems you have in order to combat them or is it just you don't give a fuck? In my eyes i think you should do something that gets rid of the anxiety and depression, Maybe you'll get addicted to drugs but hey.. Anxiety is so much worse in my eyes.. I hope everything turns out well for you, it will somehow and someday even if it's just seconds of feeling happy for once.. I hope you do we're all here~!
 
Roxy is oxycodone, and SpaceMildo that is what I tell almost everyone that the damn anxiety I believe is worse than the depression and of late the anxiety is hitting me hard. Also, when I am taking a 20 mg roxy (oxycodone) I am able to be clear headed to the point I know what my problems are, but knowing and actually fixing them is easier said than done. I am paying out of the ass to see a psychologist and a psychiatrist.




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Depression and anxiety are 10/10 the worst thing this "World" or "Life" can throw at you.. it's like the teach you how to hate your own fucking brain.. I'm sorry you deal with shit like that and i'm happy you're on something to help you, I hope the Xanax work and if they don't? Abuse the fuck out of them. Do you find being in that being good to understand the problems you have in order to combat them or is it just you don't give a fuck? In my eyes i think you should do something that gets rid of the anxiety and depression, Maybe you'll get addicted to drugs but hey.. Anxiety is so much worse in my eyes.. I hope everything turns out well for you, it will somehow and someday even if it's just seconds of feeling happy for once.. I hope you do we're all here~!
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What if the money puts stress on you? Do they help you? I feel like drugs would really be the only thing to help something that like, I could be wrong? I could be right fuck nows but it's physiological and ya brain doesn't really heal it's self after a few cuts and a bruise. But hey remember.. Them bloody gosh darn opiats can be very very.. Hard to let go at times.. Especially if you have anxiety. SO please please be safe and i hope everything does go well for you
 
Yep, even if its money issues. Last week my car broke down, got a speeding ticket, and some other things came up that were going to cost me a lot of money. So I shit you not I had to take a roxy and than went over my bank account and was calmly able to deal with it and figure out what I needed to do. If I had not my anxiety would have sky rocketed. I have had panic attacks to the point of passing out.
Yeah, I know all about the darn opiates, and the addiction and that's what I do worry about. But on days when the depression pills are not working and my anxiety is bad I have no idea what else to do to get my head back on straight.
 
Well as humans we do what we can to survive and when it feels like you're dying because of those fucked up thoughts do what you can to make yourself better, Moneys a fucking cunt. I hate it, Going a little too fast ay? Do you enjoy cars? You do enjoy speed the feeling? I do honestly i think it's amazing. Maybe you could use that to cope with anxiety and depression as well? May i ask how old you are? Addiction bloody gosh darn addition.. You seem to busy with life to have the time to be addicted to drugs and the was you're using now is a form of self medicating, Moderation is key when it comes to drugs. Fucking moderation it's something you have to learn as well, You don't want to rely on the drug you want it to assist you. I think you're taking the right steps though even if lies throwing all it can at you.. You're moving forward in a steady manner i'm proud i reckon you'v got this in the bag man
 
I love opiates and Kratom for both anxiety and depression. They do the job as long as you have a steady supply but if you're addicted and you can't get them everything that was bad before is even worse. Which of course sucks donkey dicks in hell. Best of luck with all your issues. I feel for ya. Mostly because I have them same issues myself. Nothing is worse than anxiety, next is depression. I'm lucky enough to have both at this point in life. Oh lucky me.
 
I really like the was you put the Cosmic, Simple but hard hitting and true. It's good to find people who see Anxiety as the Hitler that never died. I hope everything eases up for you. I like the way you explained addiction "Even worse Fuucking oath.
 
Thank God, you guys understand what I am talking about!!!! I am 41 SpaceMildo. I have competed in bodybuilding shows standing on stage alone in a speedo in front of about 1,000 people and hardly felt anxious at all. But now my anxiety hits like a brick if I do not have anything to do the next day. I am working today, and already worried with anxiety about Monday my day off with the thoughts of how I will be feeling, what will I be doing, etc. Idle time for my mind is pure living suicidal hell. Monday I should hopefully be able to pick up about 3 oxys for the week. I go back to see my psychiatrist next week, I am so desperate I have been seeing if shock treatment is still possible. Like you said you do what you have to to survive. I honestly think there are two types who abuse drugs...those that want to get high, and those that want to just feel normal and survive.
 
Wow, I'm sorry if i sound like a dick here.. But i never believed adults felt that way? I'm not joking.. That's fucking horrible.. Like i imagine being and having so much more understanding of the world and dealing with the struggles o the fucking world working your ass off for money? Money's a big fat cunt bro, You may not see it that way. But 1,000 people... Fuck that.. Fuck that so fucking much.. Soo many.. So many eyes.. So many fucking eyes man hahahaha! That's really amazing, it'd feel like your whole lifes kinda flipped around haha fuck, I hope the treatment works out well for you, Never done oxys to be honest but i've had codeine before and i like smoked a bit of weed sometime later.. and i just felt really pretty good haha, Binged it for a week but stopped after that. I imagine Oxys are the one that's pretty much heroine right? I dunno there's so many fucking oxys i don't get it anymore?
 
Yeah, same here I do not get it anymore. Oxycodone, oxycotin, hydrocodone, etc. So much out there.
 
Can I just point out that whilst I despise anxiety and depression , and currently battle both myself, saying that a drug addiction is preferable to anxiety/depression medication like benzos/opiates is a better choice is a fallacy.

Im not disputing that the relief in the early days is a hell of a lot preferable. Just that, in the end, these drugs stop working; and due to physiological impacts, when they do, your anxiety/depression is probably going to be worse. Throw in the social impact and consequent effects on mental health... And anxiety/depression are going to rear their ugly faces so much more than they ever did.
 
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What non-drug alternatives have you guys tried? I have had anxiety all my life, only occasional depression, but anxiety defined my earliest childhood through early adulthood. I am 62 now and anxiety is about as big of a problem as a fly occasionally getting through the screen door. It is possible to change your mind--quite literally. I would never have believed that and sometimes still shake my head in wonder but I'm grateful for the change.
 
Well, as far as I know, anti-depression pills ain't suposed to give you any kind of confidence boost, cocain does this.
So, maybe your depression (partly) has to do with low confidense and coce just helps you more with that?
 
I know exactly what you are talking about. I have depression as well as chronic back pain and all of the anti depressants I've tried makes me feel like crap, it simply does not agree with me, any of it. But like you said when I've done the other thing, my mind becomes clear, "free" or uncluttered, focused and energized, as well as productive. It's been a while because I no longer have script, but I have said to myself I wish I could feel like this naturally or could find another alternative that makes me feel this good. As you said your problems are still there, but they are no longer an encumbrance, and you can think and act with confidence and ease. So yeah it sucks they don't make something else that works in a similar way, but I've yet to find it.
 
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