why choose me?

[the other side]

i dont even have you yet
but i already fear
that i'm losing you
why does this always happen
i never think i have what it takes
to be with anyone
to be with you
its the same
situation every time
i fall in love
and then we fall out
and i'm left
broken
shattered
and alone
yet again
yet again.
i always think
you're too good for me
i'm never good enough
look at all the girls who want you
how do i compare
why would you choose me
over her
or that other girl over there
they both want you
they all do
so why, i pray
would you want to be with me?
i just dont understand
i cant find a reason
why you would choose me
maybe thats why i'm always afraid
of losing you.
and maybe these insecurities
drive you farther away.
i'm at a loss for words
please just hold me
assure me you dont want anyone but me
but sadly, i know that is not true
i know there are others
much better than i
that you would gladly be with too
so why
pick
me?
i will wait for you to calm down
realize you wont get anywhere with me
if you are still playing the field
but i wont wait too long
wont get as attached that way
and if i dont get as attached
i wont get as hurt in the end
because either way
i will get hurt.
i know i will.
but knowing this,
why do i still feel that i want to be with you?
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can you see through it all? can you see... me?

 

[*SWeeT-e*]

You can't ever love anyone else fully, nor can you let them love you, until you first learn to love yourself. Have some confidence in yourself girl!

And just enjoy what you have while you have it, worrying about losing someone will not allow you to keep them any longer than you are meant to, but it WILL eventually suck all the life outta your relationship.
Nice work...keep writing.

~kimmy.

 

[bluegirl]

i loved this ..... i can so relate to it. the last two guys i really fell for both completely fucked me around and hurt me ..... i finally had the guts to pull down my emotional walls with them and it meant that i got really, really hurt. although i have now had time to pick up the pieces and heal my wounds my confidence has taken a real belting ..... and not just with guys but with friends in general ..... just not trusting that people like me and want to be with me, that i am an interesting person worthy of their friendship. but the confidence is slowly returning ...... it's getting there!!!!
anywayz, love it lots ......
bk

 

[beguiling charms]

thought provoking, to say the least.
i feel, like i'm on the opposite side of this. no, i wish i were, but alas i don't think my other feels this way.
beg.

 

[ice-9]

Not sure what to say that hasn't already been said...
Keep on writing, your words are beautiful.
Keep your head up, be confident.