IWantFentanylInMyShit
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So, i think my extensive salvia use has something to do with my problem. This is because I find the two substances to be somewhat similar, and they are both potentially toxic to nmda receptors. I've done a lot of salvia 60X. And I've seen crazy stuff on that. That would take me hours of typing to get it all across. There's been at least two times where I came out of salvia land and went back in repeatedly until my whole gram of 60 x was gone. Eventually, though I was unable to cross into salvia land. The salvia lore my head has built has an explanation but its all psychosis anyways.
Anyways, when I first started doing k and sharing it around with friends, I noticed that I was giving them too big of lines because they would start k holing from just one. Ketamine is my favorite substance and I can never get enough of it. It wasn't until seeing my friends' reluctance to want to do ketamine, that I realize for most people, it is something they have to prepare themselves for much like I have to do with acid. And even when they agree with a great deal of nervousness, they usually say they're good by line four if not line three. I had a friend tell me he believes that I did so many lines, just because people were around and I was trying to show off. I've also read forums here on blue light mentioning how molly helps people deal with the k hole better and it makes it easier to do. For me though, I cannot pace myself. I could generally burn through 2 g by myself in a night
Which always results in me just talking about TOOL and studying math lol.
I have another friend who's DOC Is ketamine, I would say he's the only one who can keep up. When he was surprised that i've never kholed and told me that he would bring me there, he tapped out before I got close. We had like three grams between the two of us and he ended up tapping out before we got through half a g.
i have this other friend who could eat 10 tabs of acid, and just ask for more and eat them like they are candy all day. He blew my mind and I couldn't understand it, but I have people reacting to my preference of ket the same way I react to him and his proclivity for acid. I always figured that it was more impressive to eat ten tabs of cid and want more than to do ten lines of k and want more. But I am just baffled at the amount of people I see online and hang around that get nervous and have to prepare themselves. I will be in a room of people on less than half the amount I am, and they can't walk, and they're actually scared to do more. Last time that I tried to khole, i had a five gram stash, and I just kept snorting it until I was dripping sweat down my ribs and my body was completely numb.
All the while, my heart was pounding at probably 120 bpm. My friend asked me if I was okay because I was vibrating from how hard I was shaking, i asked him, why? am I gonna die? He told me that the feeling that i'm having of thinking I'm going to die.That's just being alive. And so I laid down on my bed as my legs and torso shook and vibrated the whole room and bed frame.
my friend asked me if I was okay and I-while shaking through my jittery voice-said, "this is experience." while the whole bed rumbled while I was soaking it in sweat and i was in a state of full tranquility, i wasn't happy or euphoric, or worried, just amazed. Like I saw the universe in a new light, the fact that my consciousness will know nothing but itself means that through billions of years of being nothing if I were to ever be again, i'd be right back where I am. Of course, I was aware that the chances of the matter of the universe creating itself into my brain with the same neural pathways and memories was basically impossible, but it had me considering that we built minecraft in a computer in Minecraft in a computer in real life. And that if we were to ever emulate the universe inside of itself, then we are in it already, because it would be infinite. I also considered that it took multiple redstone circuits to emulate even one block. So of course each time the universe is inside of itself, it would have to be pixelated, because the only way to have every informational aspect of the universe represented, we would need a copy of it, and you can't have two of everything, because everything is everything. I felt as though i've become part of a larger picture, and that if life persisted, perhaps a god brain will commence, where all of the matter of the universe lines itself up into nothing, but a god brain, stroking its ego going.I am I am I am. I definitely felt like I had accessed the conscious grid. And that I can see the insidious nature of matter arranging itself into consciousness and that we must get along and find a way to survive without feeding on life.
I was considering zero dimensional points and binary and everything i know about irrational numbers. I was definitely in a different plane of existence, so to speak. But here's the thing: I was still able to walk just fine (maybe a bit wobbly) and hold a conversation with my friend just fine, i was even able to delve deep into complex math discussions and teach him about the derivative. I did over half of my five gram sack, but I gave up and wanted to save some for more friends.
Was that a khole? is this normal? Am I truly as unhinged as my one friend who could eat a whole sheet of acid like it's candy and want more?
Is anybody else unable to paralyze themselves through insufflation of k?
Why do people get nervous about doing it?Especially after they've already had their first time?
And yes I tested it with my frenz with dance safe kits.
Anyways, when I first started doing k and sharing it around with friends, I noticed that I was giving them too big of lines because they would start k holing from just one. Ketamine is my favorite substance and I can never get enough of it. It wasn't until seeing my friends' reluctance to want to do ketamine, that I realize for most people, it is something they have to prepare themselves for much like I have to do with acid. And even when they agree with a great deal of nervousness, they usually say they're good by line four if not line three. I had a friend tell me he believes that I did so many lines, just because people were around and I was trying to show off. I've also read forums here on blue light mentioning how molly helps people deal with the k hole better and it makes it easier to do. For me though, I cannot pace myself. I could generally burn through 2 g by myself in a night
Which always results in me just talking about TOOL and studying math lol.
I have another friend who's DOC Is ketamine, I would say he's the only one who can keep up. When he was surprised that i've never kholed and told me that he would bring me there, he tapped out before I got close. We had like three grams between the two of us and he ended up tapping out before we got through half a g.
i have this other friend who could eat 10 tabs of acid, and just ask for more and eat them like they are candy all day. He blew my mind and I couldn't understand it, but I have people reacting to my preference of ket the same way I react to him and his proclivity for acid. I always figured that it was more impressive to eat ten tabs of cid and want more than to do ten lines of k and want more. But I am just baffled at the amount of people I see online and hang around that get nervous and have to prepare themselves. I will be in a room of people on less than half the amount I am, and they can't walk, and they're actually scared to do more. Last time that I tried to khole, i had a five gram stash, and I just kept snorting it until I was dripping sweat down my ribs and my body was completely numb.
All the while, my heart was pounding at probably 120 bpm. My friend asked me if I was okay because I was vibrating from how hard I was shaking, i asked him, why? am I gonna die? He told me that the feeling that i'm having of thinking I'm going to die.That's just being alive. And so I laid down on my bed as my legs and torso shook and vibrated the whole room and bed frame.
my friend asked me if I was okay and I-while shaking through my jittery voice-said, "this is experience." while the whole bed rumbled while I was soaking it in sweat and i was in a state of full tranquility, i wasn't happy or euphoric, or worried, just amazed. Like I saw the universe in a new light, the fact that my consciousness will know nothing but itself means that through billions of years of being nothing if I were to ever be again, i'd be right back where I am. Of course, I was aware that the chances of the matter of the universe creating itself into my brain with the same neural pathways and memories was basically impossible, but it had me considering that we built minecraft in a computer in Minecraft in a computer in real life. And that if we were to ever emulate the universe inside of itself, then we are in it already, because it would be infinite. I also considered that it took multiple redstone circuits to emulate even one block. So of course each time the universe is inside of itself, it would have to be pixelated, because the only way to have every informational aspect of the universe represented, we would need a copy of it, and you can't have two of everything, because everything is everything. I felt as though i've become part of a larger picture, and that if life persisted, perhaps a god brain will commence, where all of the matter of the universe lines itself up into nothing, but a god brain, stroking its ego going.I am I am I am. I definitely felt like I had accessed the conscious grid. And that I can see the insidious nature of matter arranging itself into consciousness and that we must get along and find a way to survive without feeding on life.
I was considering zero dimensional points and binary and everything i know about irrational numbers. I was definitely in a different plane of existence, so to speak. But here's the thing: I was still able to walk just fine (maybe a bit wobbly) and hold a conversation with my friend just fine, i was even able to delve deep into complex math discussions and teach him about the derivative. I did over half of my five gram sack, but I gave up and wanted to save some for more friends.
Was that a khole? is this normal? Am I truly as unhinged as my one friend who could eat a whole sheet of acid like it's candy and want more?
Is anybody else unable to paralyze themselves through insufflation of k?
Why do people get nervous about doing it?Especially after they've already had their first time?
And yes I tested it with my frenz with dance safe kits.
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