I haven't done MDMA for about 7 years and have very little experience in it but seem to be having some real problems from White Dominoes.
I got some of these recently and was told a pill could be 220 - 240mg of MDMA. Because of this I tried 1/4 of a pill which seemed to give only a little buzz, tried another 1/4 and redosed a few hours later, which caused me to have severe nausea, vomiting and stomach probs. through the night. But I fell asleep at the end (after about 8hrs) and the next day there was no come down, which makes me think these are the cleanest pills around.
A week later, I came back from a Christmas party, drunk and for some stupid reason decided to drop 1/2 a pill thinking it would be fine. The come up was intense and I had about 2 hrs of an intense and amazing roll, which then turned into the worse trip of my life. I was drinking some Baileys before and during the first hr of the roll and then felt really sick, stomach problems, then vomited all the contents of my stomach. After this I was going into and out of consciousness, racing heart, stomach pains, headaches and had to lie down. I was going through a very intense amphetamine like rush and couldn't come down until after 12hrs and when I sipped water, it seemed to increase the intensity of the bad trip, but I knew I had to drink. I felt like I was going to die for about 12 hrs during the bad trip.
When I finally recovered, I thought everything was alright as I went to sleep and everything seemed alright for about 1 week. During this time I started taking 5HTP to aid serotonin recovery.
Since the last 4 days I cannot sleep at all during the night. As soon as I am about to fall asleep, it seems I get a small spasm or jerk inside my brain that snaps me out of the sleep and keeps me awake all night.
This is obviously causing anxiety and the very center of my brain (behind my eyes and the back of my brain seems very clouded and hungover everyday). I have had a very severe cold virus which I am now recovering from and have started taking 5HTP again.
I now realise that a massive amount of alcohol and dropping on top could be potentially fatal to me. I lost 3 or 4 kgs of fat/ muscle combined after dropping the first WD and am only 47kg.
I want to ask the more experienced users if it is normal to not come down for more than 12 hrs from 1/2 a domino or other strong MDMA pill and being massively drunk?
Is this how a major overdose feels like?
I know I am experiencing some major anxiety from the insomnia at the moment and need to ride this out but it seems so f**king scary at the moment.
I suspect that the MDMA has somehow caused the sleep system my the brain to be rewired, which will probably takes months to put back to normal. Has this happened to anyone else?