Yeah that was a great post, and I empathize...
In earlier years psychedelics were way more adventurous for a few reasons: I had to learn how to handle them, use them, choose them etc while having experiences on them... also was more restricted in which ones were available, and I was more interested anyway in taking heavier dosages or combinations. Now I can still have amazing experiences, but I don't have frequent paradigm shifts anymore. Shifts in perspective and state of consciousness, sure... but I'm not too boggled to integrate that - it falls into place more easily.
I also gamble less with it as I don't want to destabilize myself too much anymore: I can't afford to spend a lot of time reflecting on and integrating trips that shake me to my core in new ways, just a bit too busy.
Besides that, some psychedelics are way more suitable for recreational use while others are just insane by their very nature. That really determines their usefulness and how quickly we are overwhelmed and satisfied. Everyone reacts differently too and is different in how curious or resistent or composed they are.
But no, C_B.. not many of us can take being shaken to our core in new ways on a regular basis. But you can shake yourself up in semi-expected or seen before ways
In earlier years psychedelics were way more adventurous for a few reasons: I had to learn how to handle them, use them, choose them etc while having experiences on them... also was more restricted in which ones were available, and I was more interested anyway in taking heavier dosages or combinations. Now I can still have amazing experiences, but I don't have frequent paradigm shifts anymore. Shifts in perspective and state of consciousness, sure... but I'm not too boggled to integrate that - it falls into place more easily.
I also gamble less with it as I don't want to destabilize myself too much anymore: I can't afford to spend a lot of time reflecting on and integrating trips that shake me to my core in new ways, just a bit too busy.
Besides that, some psychedelics are way more suitable for recreational use while others are just insane by their very nature. That really determines their usefulness and how quickly we are overwhelmed and satisfied. Everyone reacts differently too and is different in how curious or resistent or composed they are.
But no, C_B.. not many of us can take being shaken to our core in new ways on a regular basis. But you can shake yourself up in semi-expected or seen before ways
