Drugs I REALLY hate:
-weed- makes me paranoid. I often find myself in a black hole of self hatred.
-liquor- I just CANNOT stand hangovers anymore. Even after an hour of drinking, i feel disgusting and dehydrated. All I can smell is alchohol.
Drugs I do, but hate myself for doing them:
coke, crack- I absolutely love the rush of coke, but I always end up just trashing my veins because I turn into such a fiend. I also hate the come down, sweat just pours out of me, and I absolutely want to die. Before I started shooting coke, I never stole, but that all changed VERY quickly. Coke turned me into a super Junky.
xanax- I always used xanax because obviously, it makes me calmer, and I felt I had an easier time talking to people, especially girls. for a long time, I thought benzo's were a god send. But in the end, I would always find myself blacking out, waking up god know's where, and finding out that I had called a million different people who now think I'm crazy.