wheres the love???

[rollmeover]

back in my honeymoon phase of MDMA everything use to be full of love when i used
i would litterally have feelings of complete peace and love, no matter what the set or setting was
but after i almost filled up both of my hands fingers of rolling expierinces i realized my expieriences were lacking something, the love that got me so into the whole expierence
the feelings were still there, the dancing was still great, not as good but still amazing
the lights were not as likely to get me into a trance, but the trance was still there
but i just cant say that the love hit me as well

ill sum it up, will the love ever return???
i only use 3 - 4 times a year now, i use to use every 1 - 2 months but took a year break and its still not the same

 

[nautilus]

The novelty wore off. The first few time are beyond words, but you know what to expect after that.

 

[Dahli]

Could it also be that your environment has changed? Or your life in general? I've found that MDMA can not cause feelings that don't exist, just enhance ones that are already there. Food for thought.

 

[rollmeover]

The novelty wore off. The first few time are beyond words, but you know what to expect after that.

that has to be the biggest part of it if not the whole reason, along with the slight changes in tollerance and chemical balances associated with using in the past

thanks guys, now im on my way to make a time machine to go back and never use again until im 18, or atleast take back all the pointless times ive rolled, which have been all the times except for 3 special occasions, including my first cause who could possibly regret there first bean???

wheeeewww, im so glad ive figured this out, i thought i permanetly changed my brain for the worst, i know its not good to lose the novelty, but atleast now i dont have to worry about having damaged my brain
i always wondered why using made the next few mothes of life so much better, and everyone seems to think towards the opposite, especially non users
is it just me or does using this magic substance give us a reason to forget and forgive, and just worry about sharing love in this short life, instead of trying to make it to the top by material goods and people who dont give a shit about anyone elses true feelings, only themselves and maybe a few people they lust and have love for?

i love you all, just remember to never give up on showing true love, cause in the end everything will level out with what you truely gave to the world, for good or for bad, its all up to you 333
hahhaa that heart came out weird

 

[Mr. Wobble]

Think about the first time you drink or smoke weed (or anything else). The first times are 'Woah! New feeling!', then gradually the novelty wears off. It sucks, that's why I try to tell every first time user to "literally do ANYTHING that you think will make you happy!" Gotta enjoy it to the max while you're new at it.

 

[beardedhippie]

mdma can still be an amazing substance without having that "I LOVE EVERYTHING, i feel sooooooo good, i want to fuck EVERYTHING, the whole world needs to roll all the time, there are no problems ever." feeling. it can still be super empathic and make you super honest(with yourself and others) it can smooth out rough spots in relationships, make for AMAZING conversations and quite honestly it can still be a SHIT LOAD of fun.

the sad truth is that in all probablility no experience with mdma will rival your first few times.

 

[Godzilla]

Thats sad to read... Ive only rolled 4 times now and they have been great. The people i roll with are very expierienced and they seem to be having the time of their life. I hope this is not true and will stick to my plan of only rolling max once every month this time it will be about 7 weeks until i roll again. I will only save it for very special occasions only roll one night and only roll when I can be with a very tight group of friends or as they say "family" hopefully that will let us all keep the "magic"

 

[purplefirefly]

Are you sure that you are taking mdma? it could be that your pills/powder that also cause euphoria but feels different from mdma. Amphetamines for example have euphoria associated with the high, but the high doesn't feel exactly like an mdma high.

Set and setting are also crucial aspects to a good experience. If you are constantly thinking "aww man, I'm not at high as I want to be" then you could be talking yourself down from a good experience as well.

 

[rollmeover]

Are you sure that you are taking mdma? it could be that your pills/powder that also cause euphoria but feels different from mdma. Amphetamines for example have euphoria associated with the high, but the high doesn't feel exactly like an mdma high.

Set and setting are also crucial aspects to a good experience. If you are constantly thinking "aww man, I'm not at high as I want to be" then you could be talking yourself down from a good experience as well.

im positive ive been taking the real deal
since i have such great connections i never get anything less that "pokemon" status beans, and ill get some molly occasionally if my friends rave about how good the certain batch is

 

[purplefirefly]

A stamp should never be used to determine if a pill is good or not. Pills are copied all the time.

Do a search for "blue dolphins" and see how many of those are floating around there, from very good to horrendous.

 

[rollmeover]

A stamp should never be used to determine if a pill is good or not. Pills are copied all the time.

Do a search for "blue dolphins" and see how many of those are floating around there, from very good to horrendous.

yeah yeah yeah i know, but so far ive never been foolen by copycat presses
especially since i know what to look for in beans, when some kids my age will eat anything and think it was the real deal no matter how they felt
ive been very lucky to get what i have gotten, never even gotten a weak bean ever sooooooooooo i guesss karma is on my side :D%)
ive passed on plenty of free beans just cause i didnt have a clue what would be in them, since i didnt have any word of mouth from friends about them, or any internet access to see how other people feel about them
and im positive that it doesnt matter what people say, or how people on certain sites rate these beans, but so far luck has been with me, and ive never been faked.
not that the way im rating my beans is fullproof, its just that for me it works good enough for me to take the chance, and id risk taking the beans if i have enough trust in the ways ive been doing to figure the bean contents out
all i need is a tester, then i can help everyone in town with there beans
cause people areound here will take anything

 

[purplefirefly]

I'm curious, if you don't have a testing kit, how are you differentiating between good beans and bad beans by "knowing what to look for"?

Karma and luck only get you so far, both can run out at any given moment. Even ancedotal evidence (word of mouth experiences) aren't even an accurate way of gauging whether a pill is pure or not as some people associate any feeling of "fucked up" with rolling. How do you separate the truth from delusion?

You have to understand that this is a harm reduction website and we want everyone to be as safe as possible, and relying on the stamp/experiences others/color...etc is not the best way to be safe.

 

[C8H10N4O2]

The love can certainly return. Your mindset, and your setting are part of what gets you there. Now that you know what to expect, you're probably not being pulled into your roll as easily. A new roll trick, rolling with someone you really like, or a bomb dj set could blow you up and bring back that "first time" feeling. Space things out and look at it as a special occasion-only thing.

As said above, you may also be getting adulterated pills. There are LOTS of substances put in pills that mimic the euphoric feeling of MDMA. Judging by the look of the pill tells you absolutely nothing. I've been given two pills of the same color and stamp that turned out to be two completely different substances, and they were given to me together. Tasting the pill or taking it for a test run are also not reliable ways to test its contents....You may think you're smart about what you're taking, but you're really just in a sophomoric mindset about this....Get a test kit.

 

[rollmeover]

I'm curious, if you don't have a testing kit, how are you differentiating between good beans and bad beans by "knowing what to look for"?

Karma and luck only get you so far, both can run out at any given moment. Even ancedotal evidence (word of mouth experiences) aren't even an accurate way of gauging whether a pill is pure or not as some people associate any feeling of "fucked up" with rolling. How do you separate the truth from delusion?

You have to understand that this is a harm reduction website and we want everyone to be as safe as possible, and relying on the stamp/experiences others/color...etc is not the best way to be safe.

well i dont have any real way to truely separate tru beans from beans with other chems besides MDXX, but since ive used before, and ive done plenty of reasearch about the substance, i can be sure that what i got what a mdxx substance. unless there is chems that can truely mimic the mdxx expeirience as far as words can describe
because even with those reagent testing kits, you can still get fooled into taking other chems besides mdxx.\i believe so atleast, cause ive heard there are a few chems that come up with the same colors that mdxx comes up as
man im done trying to working my brain for today, thanks for all the info though you guys, and thanks for all the help