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Dagny

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Off and on for years I guess. I've come to the conclusion (I come to the same conclusion every time but forget it again over and over somehow) that this is a phase of mine each and every time that it's time for a new phase. I knew a guy, briefly, when I first went off to college, about a hundred years ago when I was eighteen and knew everything... this guy loved his music. It defined him, he defined art in his own way, and the things he wrote and sang about were so beautiful. He had a CD, only one thousand copies, and I still have mine. It hit me the other night when I was listening to my favorite song on the CD, and then I realized that this song used to hit me in the same way - right before I left college and graphic design - my first love.
"Every Thing I know is useless,
and Things are so hard to find.
I know a girl
She is praying for a way
To justify her mind.
And this is the last chance
It's the last chance to stay where you are.
Cause you seem to justify
With some reference to the dark,
Oh I'm dreaming.
And you know it's wrong,
Can't you see it's crazy.
When there's nothing left for you
There's nothing left to do."
Thanks Mike. Again. I had my last shot at salvaging my "old life." Or as Crow put it in an email, "Plugging myself back in to the machine." I didn't realize how hard it would be to make the decision for the second and final time, but here I am. And I love you guys. And I love myself - now that I know I really am strong enough to be Dagny. ;)
 
and there will be more phases, more realizations, more growing, more looking back, more life :)
I had a conversation just last night about how we're all moving on. The thing is, the more and more you plug yourself in, the more and more some of our friendships highlight themselves which means I was thinking of you last night :)
 
dagny
you and i have exchanged many words in this forum. girl, you know i think you are so strong, so brilliant... i dont need to tell you i'm proud, you just know that. so i will say this, and i think you will know what i mean:
Dont close any doors in your life.
 
dagny i miss you to and you are such a kick ass person. its hard knowing i live only 2 hours away and i havent seen you since the summer.
 
Dags, you don't even know how much I've missed seeing your name and words here. When I saw you a few weeks ago, you seemed shell-shocked. I knew you'd get through it but I also knew that you'd need some time. I am glad to see that you pulled yourself out of the dark that you can shine again.
I've said it before and I'll say it again, you are a strong woman! Guys, this chick is fierce!
 
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