I would do, if there was enough discussion to get excited about. I only recognise a few users, and a few veterans. I suppose my life has changed, so I'm not always making this place a priority, but it really has changed. I don't know why, either. Bluelight was originally focussed on MDMA, when I joined and it was all PLUR, which is what I think made the place so active and vibrant. Disputes didn't last long, and topics were exciting and fun. Maybe I'm just old, eh?
Thats just life - diminishing returns on everything. I first started an account on here in 2003 after discovering the site via pillreports, but I doubt i made any more than 5 posts under my original username 'redeyeUK' (check my (lak of) imagination, even tho i was still relatively young (24) ). The majority of my bluelight time has been spent lurking, as I primarily used the site as a resource for credible drug information alongside erowid.
Then 2010 arrived, along with the heroin drought, and naturally i immediately checked on here when things started to get really bad. As Id long forgot my original login, i started a new account and interacted with EADD for the first time.
Of course there was a surge of new members in Nov 2010 - bringing, for better or worse a sea change in EADD as it dragged detailed and extensive heroin discussions into the forefront for the first time. I can understand why alot of lot of the veteran members, brought here through good ees and genuine plur, must have wept to see the sudden appearance of the smackheid mafia, half of which were irish (dublins been plur free for 15 years now i can vouch for that), and most of which were arseholes who were just desperate to score, giving not even a flying fuck about the spirit of bluelight or its user agreement. Thankfully, not all of us bagheds are robbing lying cunts, and that period did bring a handful of quality members, some of whom didnt get this far (cornish is always the first to spring to mind......xx) Eventually, most of the arseholes left the heroin thread, myself included, as the drought cleaned me up allowing me to get my first decent job following my striking off as an RMN.
Well im on my third account now following my relapse and entry into formal treatment - but im just getting all down AGAIN for my own benefit and posterity - to get back to the point Treacle the board has changed since the long winter of 2010. Since the relative normalisation of heroin discussion became standard in EADD, a new breed of supercrazy polydrug abusers have come out of the woodwork, boldened by the breaking of the heroin taboo and fuelled by the explosion of super - potent benzos and other mad drugs via the grey market. The fact that most of these uber-cainers are still good people, just drug enthusiasts like myself who always take things just one bump to far. Thankfully the summer has so far spared us from any rip threads - but through luck rather than judgment. Without going into any identying details, its still been an upsetting summer, watching while one of our most popular but drug addled (even by our standards) posters is obviously going competely mad. Difficult when ur powerless to intervene.
In summery Treacle i was initially attracted to this site for reasons not completely dissimilar to yourself, but as my drug use has deteriorated into serious dependence, the spectrum of information on BL has expanded. Im probably the last person you would want on this site, but as I look around its clear that im not the only person with no self control. Have i and others like me ruined EADD for the veterans who have remained hedstrong and together? Probably, but its as much the result of the general ridiculousness of some of the levels of polydrug use reported by posters as much as its down to the basic fact that im a fucking retarded twat who never learns.
I might not belong here but theres nowhere else i feel comfortable. I suppose thats a shit justification for polluting the board with my drivel binges - it didnt save evey did it.
Diminishing returns Treacle, not your fault and nothing to do with age. The portion of our 'society' that use drugs habitually cant fight gravity for ever....
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