Where are you currently in life and what is your current drug(s) of choice?

[Deleted member 554582]

On 50...feels like on the end of the road.ten years on plus... or15 years..idk how much more for me-only scared me....I am not functional now..after ten years or so...even don't wanna think about it..currently change ten years valium habbit with lyrica..more than month...not feeling alright..may be got permanent brain damage already...physically ok....but what is body without head?painkillers is my stuff...but around nothing...only trams...and they are apap/tram,which I must cwe....this is otc-lyrica and this app/trams...well I got stash of valiums,but I use eventually 5mgs sometimes when el.impulses through my spine becomes unbearable....yes definitely benzo addiction is one of the worst..just loosing hope that someday will feel alright..no bupe programs here...often I am on verge to enter in methadone,but closer program(100km)away is already close,because of theft of litres of methadone concentrate by med.personal...junkies on methadone in whole regione now are on their own....with huge habbit and thrown out....mental health,addicts here are last category creatures...not even humans.,guess only Ukraine is worst places for mental health people.....absolutely stinky bog

 

[Ex-Cracker]

Hi sorry to hear how messy it must be, hope you don't mind me asking where you are from globally? I was on Diazapam for a while but have been on olazapine for decades and queitapine before for a decade and a half, originally big doses in the nuthouse when I was 18 for four years.