Thank you for sharing
It seems a lot of members on this forum are suffering from some sort of chronic illness whether that be mental or physical or both, in ways I am dealing with more issues today than when I was in active addiction. Particularly because 2 of my chronic health issues didnt start until about 1 year into my sobriety.
But I want you to know that theres hope of making it through your illnesses without having to use. Somehow I got stronger to the point where Ive been able to remain somewhat stoic and not turn to drugs
I like to think were not broken for having unhealthy coping mechanisms but simply surviving with what we have until better options can be found
What i learned last time i got in to deep with drugs. Is that my overall health.
Was of more importance then i realised. I thought that my WD from Alcohol.
Were so bad because it s such a horrible drug. Al my previous addiction s involved around GHB/ GBL, Kratom. And where easy to kick.
Alcohol was the only drug i had not used or placed in a category.
Like Heroine, Crack and more recent Benzo s, though i never got addicted to those.
Bluelight harm reduction at best. But Alcohol slipped under the radar.
Right in my live, so i got physically addicted 4 times !
So i live/ learn and got addicted a 5-th time. Shitty, but at least i am no Donkey.
Its just a money. This time i was well fed, nourished and physical i top state.
Drunk a lot but not to the point of physically dependant.
Or maybe that develops when your live focused on Booze.
And physical form is neglected ? This time it was way more easier.
Knew CT was not good, RC Benzo s are long gone a few month s.
So i was left with 1 option taper. I doing it slow but steady.
I relapsed a lot, so i in the relapse zone, of a will powered taper.
Which if necessary i continue till i am death. But none of the WD i had 4 times.
Are present. Shocking as it way easier now the my previuos DIY method s.
Using benzo s, and better the the Detox, way better.
The relapse rate in Detox is over 90-%. Making it a Placebo.
For the health-system. We do offer Addict s a Detox that Will take away all.
But your addiction. We fill you with lies, self for-filling prophesies and fiction.
And if all goes well you will be back next week. More money for many,
except you. And we will take your comfort med s too.
Give us shit and your out on your own.
What i did is think fuck y all.
Obviously you no longer see addict s as human s.
And this system lacks self reflection.
This is what in reality worked for me.
You want to go in WD healthy and well trained.
Why otherwise you have no energy to do it.
This is especially relevant for Booze as it drains you.
For sleeping i found no answer atm its embrace insomnia.
For this you do really need a benzo. Sad enough these are not OTC.
The rest you can train before stopping.
I did my body was trained, well fed amd enriched with supplement s.
And i am still kinda weiry waiting in vain.
Don t expect Delerium Tremens or a seizure anymore.
What i also found remarkable, i had 5 seizure.
The last one in good condition.
This one went un-noticed. It was tracking back i discovered i had one.
The day after running 3.5 km and vigorous training and forced feeding.
So why it went un-noticed, discovered it after 3 night insomnia.
One of the tell tale signs i had one.
Al the after effect s of a seizure were slowly coming on.
And because of the insomnia, and seizure activity on my muscles during sleep.
Did have a bad effect on me, as i could not train any more.
My muscles would give up walking 40 meters i a fast pace.
i am taking things slow atm, waiting anticipating better day s to come.
But i general, when WD-ing your physical fitness seems.
Along overall health the most important factor for healing quick.
Which immediately exposes Detox as wax nose for society.
The sport facilty and day care were gone due to cutting the budget.
DIY or like famous people with money do.
Go on vacation to a Detox resort, otherwise and when poor DIY.
And so is my family practitioner, my dr the man.
Who thinks a benzo for insomnia or for seizure control is drug seeking.
But indirectly says i don t take you serious drug seeker 1.
Or i hope you die soon 2.
Worst case he really believes, seizure and insomnia are less harmful,
then taking a benzo. So i am basically in cue to get to the crossroad s.
Though i know what direction to go.
So in the traffic jam right before the crossroad is where i am at.
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to you!