mysafehome01
Bluelighter
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that's very nicely worded.
Thank you.
More on topic, the lack of sleep will mess with your state of mental well being as much as the withdrawals. I find the more you talk about the subject with people, be it online or in person the easier it becomes. A lot of us put ourselves in this world and we feel the exact same emotions and torment as you do.
I wish you all the best and hope you can push on with this. If not, don't be so disheartened as I'm sure it will come eventually.