when im with you

[beanpoophead]

So tarnished

so god damn everything
you wanted me to be

all the things you said I could do to you
on all those nights when we were both so high

and here I am so cold tonight
because I let you touch me the way you did
but still im afraid of letting you in

I take each shot with your curse
drink til im done, again and again
im not going home - no not this time

won’t take myself back to that place
where I was with you and you made me, me
and it never was fair for you to see me cry
you were the one that shed the tears

so listen to my jeers
follow on, let me lead you on, deep into me
let me show you the ugly that lives within
of the girl who was so damn pretty

and you cant know her face
because she always leave you without a trace
fades into yesterdays hello’s and tomorrow’s
sweet, sweet sorrows
that made her real in the first place

not afraid to tell you that I am her
but I wont show the bruises that let you taste me
suck me in to your skin and sink me low
let me feel you go down, I wanna feel your drown
in my poisonous web

who this is too
I couldn’t say right now
im a little to gone, right now
to hold your hand, right now
in front of him

cos didn’t you know I was afraid
that I’d still want to fuck him
even though I was with you
so just hold me now
and let your kisses, kiss me back

and I’ll be yours
if you see it for yourself
if your not afraid to touch
the ugly inside

because im beautiful
when im with you

 

[cherub]

Girl lately your writting is so powerful and full of raw emotion is it touching and kinda reaches you to the core. I hope writting this out helps you work through it and find that balance of knowing how beautiful you are.

Hugs !

 

[Taliana]

Wow, that was amazing. I love reading your work. Wow.