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Whats your strangest paranoia / delirium?

let me share mine (pardon my english)
happened to me early this year,
i was very depressed, and was foolishly thinking about ending my life after my ex business partner took over the business and ruined my family, my girlfriend left me, and i have a health problem.
it was on a sunny sunday morning, in my own room, i took 10 pills of E at once, passed out after a while, and i was having very very negative hallucinations/visions or whatever you call them...
this hallucinations/visions i had is as if i was looking through someone else.

the first one is a standard hallucination i had about my sister's ex-boyfriend long time ago, and about something he hide somewhere, it was a brief one and then it shifted to the next hallucination.

the second one is where it started getting very depressing/scary, i opened my eyes to find the sky was fiery red, everything is burned down, there is no building, everyone was running/crying with deformed faces, civilization is breaking down, and i was running too, together with 2 people claimed to be my parents.
as we run, we saw people everywhere thrown in chaos, with no dignity trying to salvage food from garbage. and lying has become very common to survive among them. i was very disgusted.
then it shifted to the third hallucination.

the third hallucination is scary, very very scary.
what if God simply forget about us? the world we living in is very fragile and prone to any danger, and worst case scenario, we would cease to exist in an instant.
to make it worse, there was even a big countdown to it in the sky....
people are panicking, different from the previous hallucination, everything is still intact.
people started dividing into 2 groups, people that were still have hopes and those who were thrown into despair.
i remember seeing this 1 girl, a very pretty girl with a very soft and calming voice trying to calm us down.
as the countdown proceed near 0, i still remember someone in despair trying to make a sad joke so that the last thing we would see/remember before we cease to exist is something very very terrible(you know when you watch those videos that instantly change to a ghost picture in an instant together with a loud shriek).
then again it shifted to the next hallucination.

this one hallucination i can't remember very well, but basically still about the end of the world.
this is the last hallucination i had and i woke up after that, with bloodshot eyes and then i was talking gibberish to my parents.

it was a very scary experience for me, so scary i sometime still shudders from remembering them.
after that experience, i really can't stand disturbing images, scary stories/movies, sad jokes, and cruel lies. and now i'm slightly paranoid about apocalypse.
but 1 thing i found is that i'm so glad to be alive.
 
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