Ok people brace yourself for this one
ok everyone, speaking from my point of view, get off all the fuckas now, you may think that they all work, and they do, untill u need that one more pill extra ea day then next month in turns into two pills extra etc, speaking from experience and a long history of benzo abuse, i too was diagnosed with g-a-d generalised anxiety disorder plus panic disorder the doctor started me on diazapam but didnt tell me how many to take, i started off at a dose of 20mg 4-5mg pills.........worked a treat for a few months till my father died, went bak to my doc the day of my dads death and he wrote both me n mum valium scripts with 3 repeats ea, (mum was not with me) so upon returning home mum refused to take them so i kept all the scripts, within the next 4-5 months it esculated and by then it got to the point where everytime my heart started beating fast i would throw a couple of pills down my throat! I kept makin excuses by 10 months after dad passed away i couldnt remember the last ten months cant even remember dads funeral coz i was sooo off my face, anyway by now, i was taking a box of 50 per day at 5 mg a pill......... I was shopping from doc to doc makin up any bullshit that i could to get a fix....
The day came that that i got caught out n my doc decided to put me on xanax, i was on that a good 6 months, that was almost two yrs ago now, i got a pescription for panadeine forte and realised if i took 6 at once it would feel like i had just had valium, so for the next 12 months i used xanax and panadeine forte till medicare caught me out, and i was put on shopper doctor, and monitered, after xmas last yr i lost it completely, lost my mind and broke, i ended up in james fletcher phsyciatric hospital with a breakdown and a drug substance abuse, i was weaned and also diagnosed by then with not only the disorder i had but manic depressive, i got out of hospital after a 3 week stay and stayed ok for few days till i found a script with three repeats for xanax so i was straight back to the chemist..and the cycle began.....3more visits bak to the hospital for same things only suicidle on top of it and then diagnosed bi polar as well.....
Currently i can no longer obtain pan forte but i do wot i can to get it whn i can
my current meds i am taking is
diazapam- 50 mgs of a nite(10pills)
xanax-8mg(8 1mgs or 4 2mgs
dolased(over counter codeine) 102 pills a day
serapax(whn i can get it) 180mgs(6pills)
serequel(anti phsycotic) up to 600mgs
epilem(anti seizure and mood stabaliser) up too 600mgs a nite
lamoxagen( mood stabaliser) 250mgs a nite
tamazapam(whn i get it) up to 50mgs a nite(usually mixed with another benzo
the list can go on but let me warn u that if u decide to cum off ur meds without help ur fucked up u will have a seisure and could have a heart attack and withdrawal aint a pretty thing trust me!
