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What's your afternoon fix? are you missing anything today?

Hey Hylite, thanks for joining us!

Well It sounds as if you found a system that works for you.

Were the side effects of hydrocodone getting to be too much, hence the taper/microdoses?

Ah yes, unfortunatley it sounds as if you, like many and myself included, stumbled upon the benzos dilemma.

The way folks take opioids here for pain, I once was prescribed klonopin (same class of drug as xanax- benzodiazepines)- for extreme and life affecting levels of trauma induced anxiety, relating to complex ptsd.

Unfortunately the complex ptsd diagnosis came much later in life, so I thought I was just a fuck up who failed at life, and couldn't keep it together.

Klonopin opened up my world. For the first time, at 33 years old, I felt "normal".

I could read, and retain material. Looked up and noticed my surroundings for once instead of walking with eyes perpetually to the ground.

Could focus and concentrate to a degree and handle it when people were shitty to me at work ( all day every day).

Just life changing.

But then I became chemically addicted and would have serious wd's when trying to stop.

My doctor "tapered" me off of 2 years of klonopin use in 3 weeks. Dizzy spells, time lapses, skin crawling anxiety, and intense insomnia.

So I returned to drinking.

The rest is a long story but I have not had a drink or a benzo in years. If I do I will have life threatening wd's.

Those are drugs best avoided, tbh.

Hylite, is there any particular reason you cannot just stay on a low dose maintenance schedule with your opioid?
 
Hylite, don't I know it.

Are you prescribed them then?

I sourced mine but prescription only.

Way too much scary stuff out there.
 
almost 12 so my fix will be 100mg pregab and more kratom. maybe some breakfast and more coffee.
definitively more thc-o
 
Feelin' gurrrddd. Always lovely when you finally get your meds after several days of either very minimal amounts or none!

Dihydrocodeine 360mg
Gabapentin 1800mg
Quetiapine 50mg

Normally I wouldn't feel much, but feeling very chill and content right now.
 
little bit of red wine but haven't tried it yet. i just want to pass out forever. nod's will do.
 
Well, some kratom but at the shop they sold me some jank little spoon supposed to be 3 mg but I think it may not even be 2. They really didn't seem to know. And the one guy didn't even ever try kratom. Kind of a crapass operation but what was available. I am a first time user, I am going to just buy it online in pills because all they had for red bali, which folks here on the site had reccommended- was a PIA powder that is messy af and does not stir into liquids too well.

Actually this afternoon is my 2nd go. Last night my friend had her mg scale and properly meaured things and we had a good time.

Today not so much, she took her scale home earlier.
 
200mg Tapentadol

Bad flu hit me there from Tuesday to yesterday, actually feel ok now and all these kids running round me is making me dizzy lol (at a kids adventure playground).
 
Come about 3.30 I'd usually have a 4-pack of xtra strength Carlsberg, not accessible to me atm in Brazil where the beer is generally shit and it's difficult to find anything to buy over 4.7% alcohol.

Rn a gram shot of smack ready drawn - up would do me just fine
 
a beer, foregoing the xanax, ~jumps
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just another day in paradise~jumps
 
Intention was to make Cuba Libre drinks. But i forgot to buy lime juice. So i am just having Rum and Coca cola with ice cubes.

Almost automatically, i was about to write that i want cannabis. Like.. 0.15 gram flower joint with some tobacco mixed in it so you can actually make a visible joint.

But the last time i smoked cannabis was February. I have almost forgot the pleasant feeling. Almost forgot how much it helps, regarding my problematic alcoholism. I have not used any illegal drugs in 5 months now. At all.

So my actual post goes like this: 1:33 PM (qualifies as afternoon, right?) And i have coca cola and rum. And i want lime juice.
 
Did someone fart? said:
Intention was to make Cuba Libre drinks. But i forgot to buy lime juice. So i am just having Rum and Coca cola with ice cubes.

Almost automatically, i was about to write that i want cannabis. Like.. 0.15 gram flower joint with some tobacco mixed in it so you can actually make a visible joint.

But the last time i smoked cannabis was February. I have almost forgot the pleasant feeling. Almost forgot how much it helps, regarding my problematic alcoholism. I have not used any illegal drugs in 5 months now. At all.

So my actual post goes like this: 1:33 PM (qualifies as afternoon, right?) And i have coca cola and rum. And i want lime juice.
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Is it better for you to drink than smoke weed?
 
VerbalTruist said:
Is it better for you to drink than smoke weed?
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Oh friend. I could answer this the short way. It is a fucking lot better for me to smoke weed than to drink alcohol.

But in order to you maybe get the idea... I got drunk for the first time at age 15. I thought "this is how i want to feel always. ALWAYS!" It felt like i received something i have always wanted. Or got rid of something i always wanted to be gone. Not sure. But the certainty is, that at age 15, first time drunk, i instantly became an alcoholic.

40 years old now. A quarter of a century of alcoholism. Cannabis helps. It takes my alcohol cravings away or significantly reduces them. I used to grow weed at home during 2002 - 2009 because i abused every single motherfucking drug known to man, except heroin and research chemicals. And i had to fund that nasty habit.

Cannabis lifts me to the surface. To life. Alcohol kicks me to the bottom. To death.

Maybe this was a bit brutal, but it was 100% honesty i motherfucking swear.

More rum and coca cola and despair.

Look i smoked the rest of my cigarette and i want to continue this post. So i abused a whole lot of shit during the early years of this millennium. And... And i SWEAR that the substance that has caused the most harm to me, my surroundings, and my loved ones, is alcohol. It is vicious shit cycle really. But i am addicted to alcohol. I am weak.

Thank you for the question. it helped me to self reflect.

I wish you a pleasant day!
 
Did someone fart? said:
Oh friend. I could answer this the short way. It is a fucking lot better for me to smoke weed than to drink alcohol.

But in order to you maybe get the idea... I got drunk for the first time at age 15. I thought "this is how i want to feel always. ALWAYS!" It felt like i received something i have always wanted. Or got rid of something i always wanted to be gone. Not sure. But the certainty is, that at age 15, first time drunk, i instantly became an alcoholic.

40 years old now. A quarter of a century of alcoholism. Cannabis helps. It takes my alcohol cravings away or significantly reduces them. I used to grow weed at home during 2002 - 2009 because i abused every single motherfucking drug known to man, except heroin and research chemicals. And i had to fund that nasty habit.

Cannabis lifts me to the surface. To life. Alcohol kicks me to the bottom. To death.

Maybe this was a bit brutal, but it was 100% honesty i motherfucking swear.

More rum and coca cola and despair.

Look i smoked the rest of my cigarette and i want to continue this post. So i abused a whole lot of shit during the early years of this millennium. And... And i SWEAR that the substance that has caused the most harm to me, my surroundings, and my loved ones, is alcohol. It is vicious shit cycle really. But i am addicted to alcohol. I am weak.

Thank you for the question. it helped me to self reflect.

I wish you a pleasant day!
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Alcohol is insidious and truly difficult ❤️
 
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