What's the point

I just want to kill myself. Every day I'm alive brings me closer and closer to doing it. I have nothing to left to live for. Sure, a few people would miss me but nobody would really care.

I would just be another memory tucked away in the back of someones mind.

Fuck it.

 

Is this Day 3 of abstinence from methylone? Have you always felt suicidal or are these thoughts/feelings in direct relation to the comedown/withdrawal?

For me, I really don't want to die, I simply just want the pain to go away. Keep pushing through and this pain will pass.

\If you ever want to scream, cry, curse someone out... feel free to shoot me a PM. Sometimes it helps to just fucking RAGE on someone. %)

 

don't give ppl the satisfaction.
I've had suicide on my checklist since I was 11. Tried so many fckin times to end my life. I got so frustrated everytime I failed. hated myself even more for it.
but I learnt one thing that has kept me going til now..
You can always decide to kill yourself tomorrow. The point is to keep procrastinating.
and the thing about having something to live for... well..
life has no meaning, unless you give meaning to it.
you're not in this fight alone.
try everything possible before you decide to fck it.
At least, you didn't give up for nothing.

 

I've felt suicidal since I was 18. I had so much shit go wrong that year that it fucked up the rest of my life. Methylone is what I have used to make me happy these past few months. I just used my last 200mg's, and I should have 2 more grams in the mail, as well as a sample of mxe.

I would give anything to just go back and start over, but that's impossible.

Oh well, I'll keep on doing what I'm doing and hope for the best.

 

My drug use hasn't made me suicidal. It helps hide it and makes like a lot easier for me.