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Honestly,At this point right now, I have no idea how I feel! My mind is goiong in twenty million directions, every thought that could pass through my mnd, is just a flying. I know it is just hormonal, but the past two days I can't stop crying and I don't know why!
My boyfriend gets off ship today, it will be the first time I have seen him since I found out that I am pregnant. I am so scared, and feel so alone. I feel as though no-one has any clue what I am going through right now. He is only gonna be here until March, then he gets shipped off again, and won't even be here when the baby is born. This is all just so much to handle, I really don't know if I can do it. I really wanna just move back home, though I just left a month ago, but I really think I need to be near my family for all of this.
I actually got to talk to him again yesterday, in the middle of my depression kick, he asked me if I wasn't happy about all of this, I told him I am happy, I just am not sure really what Iam right now.
I am on this HUGE emotional rollercoaster, and I just want it to stop. I mean I want this baby, don't get me wrong. This is just alot to digest right now.
Well, I am gonna go lay on my couch and cry some more, and just hope that some how, some way, all the answers will come to me, which I know that they won't!
 
^^^sometimes thats all we can do is just lie there and let it all come out. Whatever it is that is troubling you, just have faith that things will sort themselves out. Give up on trying to come up with something, let your soul guide its own way and it will lead you to be happy again
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I just had a wonderful dinner, cooked by my best friend.
I watched American Idol and enjoyed picking on people with my friends.
I'm listening to some Mary J Blige (feat. Common) right now.
This is life.
And it's also 100 posts.....
 
What's going on in your life, V5.0

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Original thread started by Sweetpea:
A long time ago this was one of my favorite posts in Social.
For me, I'm actually feeling weird about turning 25. I know it's not that old or anything but it's a mid-point and sometimes I think I should be further than I am. I'm in no way dissapointed in myself-but it's just a reality checkpoint for me.
I'm in the midst of moving, finding a new job and deciding what it is I truly want to do. As of Saturday I move back to California which I was really excited about-then an unbelievable job offer comes my way here in SC. I interview tommorow and for the right price-I'd stay here in SC.
Things are on the verge of change for me...actually they always are. I'm constantly on a never-ending adventure. I'm somewhat confused on what my priorities are at the moment.
Other than that I'm in a very introverted time in my life but I'm very happy with who I am. I'd like more of a social life but this whole past year has been like therapy to me.
So what's going on with you? Spill it.
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Many, many things. Ive been to busy to even post and I really miss bluelight alot. My full time job really takes up alot of my time and just moved to S.F. Plus there's fact that Ive been getting baked off my ass almost everyday, playing music loud, hanging out with friends and exploring the city. Its going great and Im happy I have good roomies to share my house with, even if they eat my food sometimes. There has been some hard stuff to deal with though, like getting robbed and knocked in the jaw over three bucks. Worse yet, passing out in public and getting a nasty cut on my head, having to go get stiches. Ugh, that bill is most likely going to stay with me for sometime. But Hey!!!! My girlfriend and I a finally going to be back together tomarrow!!! Yes, after 6 months of being drilled in the head everyday by living at my mothers and hearing her AA speaches after I took to much Ayahuasca; the wait has come to and end. It has not been easy, but Im happy we are going to be on are own and hope I dont get too busy get get to go on bluelight.
[ 05 February 2003: Message edited by: Spinal ]
 
Our bubby is a little girl, and she's recently learned how to bounce on my bladder, which is splendid ;) Work is going well and my fiance is still the most incredibly wonderful person in the world. My parents are great and I had a good night's sleep last night for the first time in months. Yay :)
 
In the fall of last year my mother's mental and physical health deteriorated to the point of no longer being able to live on her own.
This resulted in me relocating to my hometown of Hartsville, TN in September to sort out her affairs following her admittance to a nursing home.
I am currently finishing up my sociology degree at Tennessee Technological University, operating my own Ebay business, and am emptying and performing renovations on my house here in preparation to sell it either this summer or fall (yes you read that right, FoX is a homeowner- a sure sign that the apocalypse is nigh ;) )
Once the undergrad is done I plan to pursue a PhD (also in Sociology), sew leather patches on the elbows of my tweed jacket, and teach.
Between school, Ebay and working on the house I haven't had much spare time, but I do maintain a personal journal accessible via my website.
Oh yeah, I FINALLY got those dreadlocks that I've been wanting for several years.
I miss you guys, and hope to be able to pop in more often, though I'm not really going to have a much more sane schedule until the house is finished and unloaded.
namaste
~fox
 
<3 FoX
Well, this month marks a year that I packed up and moved 700+ miles from my family and where I grew up in North Carolina to Florida. I am at the same job that I originally moved down here for, and things are going good with it. I still live with my roommate, whom most of you know as Cloud 9 on bluelight, and are doing fine. I still don't have anything resembling a social life, which is fine, because there's still things I need to get in order before I start meeting people.
All in all, my life is going ok for now.
 
Well my ex and I have recently started talking and seeing each other on a regular basis, which is good but I am always hearing shit from my friends for hanging out with her. We at the moment are not together, although I have expressed my desire to do so, and she did not say no, rather she said "well lets see what happens." The reason my friends are giving shit over this is that she broke up with me to be with my best friend, and as foul as that was after her "thing" with him blew up she starting calling me again. At first I hesitated, and starting talking shit to her as any guy would do, but the wierdest thing happened instead of her fighting back or talking back she would just turn and walk away, then later she would call me and ask why I was talking shit and I was like "duh! look at what you did to me!" I don't know what is going to happen between us, but either way I am fucked! It is going to hurt one way or another. Got Damn why did this have to happen to me?
Hey dopeman, do you have an email address? If so put it in your profile and I will get in touch with you. Peace.
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Corrupter - Sorry to hear about your girl. It may be best just drop her and cut your losses. I just noticed you live somewhat near me. Hit me up on aim or something.
My life. Hmm. So far this year.
Lets see me and my fiance of 6 years are on/off not sure where that is headed but it dont look very good.
My fiance's truck got repo'd about 1.5 weeks ago. I bought a car on Saturday. This cost me 1500$ out of my pocket.
I am on felony probation for the next 8 years.
My fiance got the news she was getting laid off from her job next month.
I will be 27 years old this year and that is just wrong.
But I have a good job and as long as I have that I should be ok.
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I got to visit my friends in colorado 2 weeks ago.. it all went wel until my friend alex found out.. yeah
then I came home and ive been totally swamped in thousands upon thousands (seemingly) of advanced classes in school.
then I have saturday morning art classes and theater paint crew every saturday.
I got 'sick' this week, but really its because i started taking my meds again and i havent eaten much.
Ive lost 6 pounds so far this week, Im excited (though probably very badly dehydrated)
 
confusion takes over as the one who's been around for four years slowly becomes too busy for things.
meanwhile, there is a new light in my life, and i'm scared that i may have to make a choice between the two. bah.
 
at the moment, im very depressed about my family, im still single but my mum is having some financial problems and i cant do anything about that, im really upset at my self for not being able to help her :(
today was my first day to go back to college, i didnt turn up, last week i went away for a break, thinking that i could get a fresh start at skool, as soon as i come home, mum told me about what happened to her and i get depressed again, many things are going thru my head now, i met a guy at where i went to and we seem to be into each other a lot, now im thinking about him, about my mum's problems, my study, i wish i just disappear in this life, i have been in this country for almost 7 yrs, and i havent done anythign for myself, i feel completely useless and now im hooked on E, thank god that its the only thing i like, im not really addicted but yeh, i just dont know what im gonna do, should i work to help my mum or study and ignore her?? i hope i can make up my mind tonite coz tomorrow i have to call the college to let them know if im gonna study, wish me luck folks
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I decided not to study, have applied for some jobs, hopefully they will call me in few days
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-Still delivering pizzas for a local pizza place...I'm starting to get really bored with it, though, and my car is getting up there in miles, so I probably won't do it for much longer. Besides, it's time for me to get a real job where I can use my skills a bit better anyway. It'll be hard finding a job that pays more than pizza delivery, though...
-I finally started paying off my credit card debts, so I started buying records on-line for the first time in a looooong time, my first shipment should get here tomorrow. :) Finally I can get the records I really want, instead of the crap left over at local shops.
-Finacially I'm very comfortable, and I can spend money loosely without worrying about it. This means I can get weekends off whenever I feel like it, whereas last year I had to scrounge hours whenever I could get them. Now I can go out clubbin or to shows a lot more often.
Yep, things are lookin up for ol DJWhat :)
 
I turn 22 this year and have already met the love of my life.
I'm getting hold of my financial problem and moving on from my depressing past !
I was in a car accident 2 yrs ago and we're looking at settling my claim within the next 6months. It'll be twice what i expected !! I'm going to buy a house with my boyfriend and get my life on track.
I'm going to continue to party and love life. I'm going to help my parents and love them more and more everyday !!
Now i just need to look into going into business to secure my finances for the rest of my life.
Let the good times begin.
Everyone has a bad year or so I believe.. if you're having trouble.. i'm sure its only temporary. Try and help yourself to get out of the 'rut' and i'm sure things will fall into place. Think positive. :)
PLUR :)
[ 11 February 2003: Message edited by: Escaped Lunatic ]
 
My nails are growing. :) After over 22 or so years of biting them I've decided to stop. Anyone who is a nailbiter knows this seems impossible. Making a concious decision like this is a nice for me when I'm doing well. I can sratch my itches and feel nails, and they are painted pretty. I've also wanted pretty hands and nails but just thought I was doomed. We'll see- I'm excited about it. I feel very healthy
I love working at the NY deli, my day job is what is supporting me and I enjoy it too, but I love talking to everyone and eating Corn Beef Ruebens and pastrami sandwiches along with serving old jewish new yorkers.
My relationship is going well, I'm going on a suprise vacation on Friday. He's wonderful and flexible. His friends are very east coastish and we eat and go out together, it's nice. It's not my life but I love being a part of it. He also lives in LA and I've been loving spending time there. I love OC but it's a fun change.
My car is actually holding up, she's somewhat ugly but getting me around. Don't tell her I said that.
My problems that I'm ignoring? I still have things I need to pay for. I don't have a whole lot of debt but I never seem to buckle down and get rid of it.My paychecks haven't been spent that wisely and I still need to find a roommate and aquire some furniture and my own environment.
My life has been simple but exciting. I miss some people that live fairly close to me that I haven't been in touch with. Only time will tell and not rushing is just fine with me.
I'm on bluelight a lot during my day at work.
I think that's it =P
 
My life is falling into place. I'm still stuck in the clouds, but I feel 10 ft. tall.. so my feet are carefully planted on the ground as well.
Still waiting to hear from my school audition, but think I'll most likely return to UNCG to finish a degree (music or arts). Then, I'm packing my shit and moving to EUROPE. I'm looking at Antwerp, Belgium, and various cities in Holland. The Dutch people I've met have always been really nice, genuine people. The arts and culture there is rich as well. Certainly something I wouldn't regret moving to. My friend is thinking about moving to Amsterdam, herself, so there could be friendship early on after changing coasts.
I've lost a few pounds :) That is always a small boost in my esteem. I hope to loose a few more. Just want my pants to fit again.
Well, glad to see everyone is doing well in here. ~peace
 
blah ...
where to begin
turned 21 in november, finding myself drinking more often than i should, but its been like that since high school. junior at msu here in michigan and studying studio art, hopefully graphic design and photography.
im sick of michigan and my car is broke so its hard to get to detroit or chicago to escape. (yeah i know detroit is in michigan , thanks)
and as always girls are confusing.
i havent smoked in two days, i turned off the tv and picked up my homework for once, i told my roomates i didnt want cable, i hate tv, but i lovwe it at the same time,
america is brainwashing the youth.
fuck bush.
dont fight for their cause.
the rich dont care about you they want your labor.
sorry.
dont mean to go off on a political tangent.
i feel like im the only one that doesnt want to get bombed because of what our asshole president is doing and it makes me feel uncomfortable.
patrick517
 
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