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being happy
spending time with my family
preparing myself mentally to hike the Appalachian trail through hike solo
working my way through mental pyschosis revolving around a compulsion to deny things that are going on in my life (opiate abuse)
going to NA meetings 3-4 times a week
 
I might have gotten a fast paced marketing job, selling windows, today!! Its a commission based pay. I make up to 40 bucks an appt.!!! So, like 1000 a week.. if I do well, therefore, irradicating my financial worries!!
[ 13 November 2002: Message edited by: StarTripper ]
 
whats going on in my life?
im a mess. as usual.
how is it possible to spend soooo much money in soooo little time? what im wondering is where it goes? wtf? *shakes head*
im $1500 in debt. which isnt news, but i made a budget over the weekend. when to pay bills/how much to pay to who and when etc. its tuesday now. and its already broken. how? 3 days? it lasted three days?
this has been a stressful 6 weeks. i moved back home to my moms in tucson at the beginning of october, while continuing to work in phoenix. i cannot find a job in tucson that pays more than 1/2 what i make in phx. its a 2 hour drive to work each way. 3-4 times daily. im open to suggestions.
i thought today was going REALLY GOOD. my best girl morgan and i have been drifting since summer. and we spent a lot of quality time together today. it was really really nice. had the funniest thought on the way to see her (shes happily engaged and im miserably single) and i thought to myself that, for the first time in 8 months, that i didnt miss kyle. my ex fiancee.
kyle. my ex fiancee. (#2 i told you i was a mess!). [seemingly] dropped off the face of the earth a week or two before spring break in early march. heard once that he was seeing some other girl. whatevs. havent heard a peep from the man i was supposed to marry. and then i thought of him. go fucking figure.
guess whos back? and fucking with my head. yup.
whatevs. i dont need that added drama.
school is going *RELLY* well for me. im getting straight As. my gram told me she was so proud of me that shes going to pay any costs above my scholarship next semester so i can go full time.
i love my job. i have 2 infants and a toddler and a preeschooler. baby #1= char. 15 weeks, sweet as could be. spits up a lot which is yuck, but shes a baby, and thats what babies do. so happy and sweet. baby #2= alexandra.. 7 months, such a happy little girl! all smiles and giggles, very beautiful little girl! and then my zoe and sophie. the loves of my life. soph is learning to talk, and said "i rove yoo reffie." trans= i lov eyou steffie. zoe said that i was her best friend. which made me cry. i could truly not imagine my life without these beautiful little angels. they are my world.
i want to move to so cal after this school year is over. but i dont have a place to stay, and dont really know a lot of people there. i want to live in san diego or orange county. but, it is a goal, and with a will there is a way. i guess we'll see :)
 
life is a little harsh at the moment.
but once again an online community of friends proves more valuable & caring than many so-called real life friends... this thread! pretty much sums it up.
from being in the depths of despair & worry to feeling happy & confident - we count ourselves lucky to have such good friends. i mean, damn.
other than that; i wish my love would be better, i wish we could find out what was wrong, and i'm terrified of losing another soulmate. she must get healthy.
 
Ain't life a bitch?
Right now I can't complain too much... except for my close to non-existant paycheck (it's been raining a lot lately, shutting down all construction), the fact that I've been sleeping on my best friends couch for almost a year now, lack of sex life (I got fucked up and slept with a beautiful woman last night, but got NO play), and this incredible pain in my back (I think maybe something is trying to grow out of my upper spine and poke out through my back, just below my neck-line).
Actually, that's a lot of complaining... but at least I'm emotionally stable at the moment. ;)
Things are good. My daughter is healthy and happy, my friendships are growing stronger, I like my job (even though there hasn't been any work, my paycheck is small and I could get fired any day now), and I got really high last night. 8) Brain chemistry is a wonderful thing, and right now I'm not depressed... that means everything.
 
Life has its own way of evening out the ups and down, I've decideded.
Down: It's now officially the tourist "off-season" where I live... which means I've been cut down to three nights a week at the restaurant. I'm staying there (I get health insurance starting Dec. 1st, yea!) so that I can work next summer, make oodles of money, and move to CT... but I need a 2nd job for the daytime, Monday thru Friday. I'm broke as a joke, have a mountain of bills to pay, AND owe my mother somewhere in the area of $1500. It's a damn good thing she doesn't charge me interest on my old loans that have yet to be paid back...
Up: I'm falling madly, deeply, in... something... with an absolutely incredible guy. I haven't really dated in over a year for various reasons, and now I know why. Jay wasn't in my life yet. :) I'm incredibly happy, and even though he lives in CT, we're making the effort to see each other almost every weekend, and of course talk a hundred times a day on the phone and online. He's amazing. :) I went from a jaded, sarcastic lil bitch to a fluffy plur-bunny of love in about .02 seconds thanks to him, and surprisingly I like it!
This also gives me even more motivation to get my ass in gear, go make a ton of money, get out of debt, and save enough to comfortably move to CT next Labor Day, as I was planning long before this happened w/ the boy. I miss all my friends there so much, and Jay too now. Gawd I love the NE Crew... best friends a girl could ever have. :)
Peace ~Katie
 
man.. sometimes life just kicks ya around. my great uncle died yesterday morning. and i am feeling VERY guilty that i havent seen or spoken to he or my aunt in probably 5 years, and they live maybe 30-45 minutes away. just felin guilty.
but on a kinda humorous note... another ex sorta popped into my life. we werent like together or anything, but went on a few dates, hung out n just fucked around hung out n shit.
so i wake up, barely had time to get some OJ when my phone rings, the conversation went like this:
"hello?"
"hey, is this princess steffie?"
"what the fuck? who the hell is this?"
"just some punk who was thinkin about you"
"who the hell is this???"
"dj from down the street, whats up grrli?"
*laughter from me"
"hey sweetie how are you?"
"good, just callin to tell you to get your ass over here and hang out with me today!"
"aight see ya lata"
so we hung out and had a mildly good time. damn its been 3 years and i still think abou tthis guy... lol... hes just a sarcastic little punk whos almost 30 but acts like hes 20.. it was good times, had a good day today :)
 
Stop the presses - we went out last night, for the sole purpose of having fun! And I had soooo much fun. It was incredible to be out for a few hours without worrying about money, or cleaning, or packing, or anything really. We saw our favorite local band, heard some amazing live music, had two or three beers, smoked a bowl with the trombone and trumpet players from the band, and then they - along with the lead guitar player and drummer - came and crashed at our house so they wouldn't have to sleep in the van.
Good to know that I haven't gotten to old to do ridiculous things now and then. Although it was really rewarding, being up half the night having fabulous conversation with a bunch of grown guys who gave up their day jobs to follow their dreams. They have interesting perspectives on life, and I had missed hearing other people's stories over a shot and a bowl. :)
 
being up half the night having fabulous conversation with a bunch of grown guys who gave up their day jobs to follow their dreams
that was so sweet!!! that totally put a smile on my face :) glad to hear you had a good night- but that one comment... full of hope! :) more people should give up their day jobs and chase their dreams :)
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It's my 25th birthday. My parents gave me a card that made me break down like a 2 year old being dragged out of Toys R Us.
I went drinking last night, and got to spend sometime with some friends. One in particular that has a jolly mental hold on me.
Now, I'm totally sad...Is this normal to feel this way on my bday?
 
Of course it is, Furnace darling. Especially the 25th one. That one got to me pretty hardcore several months ago, but it's okay sweets. You'll be smiling before you know it - have a wonderful day, and don't do anything too strenuous, just relax and don't forget to laugh! Whenever possible. :)
 
Update... my "couching" days could be close to being over. A friend is considering a move, and we're talking about doing it together. So, we shall see.
/me crosses fingers
Another update... just got 2 tickets last night! Gotta take the bad with the good I suppose... thankfully I've already figured out a way around the tickets... I'm a devious fuck.
 
Um, considering? Well, if that means calling realtors and filling out job applications, then, yes. I am considering ;) . Basically, what is going on in my life is the same as Web's. But I only have ONE ticket!
On a side note... I am very, very happy these days. It feels really good :)
 
I've been living in England for the last four months trying to get a job in Graphic Design. No joy so I'm moving home to Ireland on Tuesday.
I can't wait to see my friends again.
 
Originally posted by batty:
Um, considering? Well, if that means calling realtors and filling out job applications, then, yes. I am considering ;) .
Considering, yes. :) No jobs have been accepted, leases signed or U-haul's rented.
Thinking of it on that level is a defense mechanism, and it keeps me from being dissapointed if you change your mind... it's just one of the little ways I've learned to deal with life's little dissapointments.
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I was at a trade show all weekend for work-it was a lot of fun and I felt professional :P
HAPPY BIRTHDAY FURNACE :)
I went out and ate the best dinner I've had in a long time- I was all alone and treated myself quite nicely :)
My feelings have changed about my current relationship but what else is new..I still adore him but something has changed...story of my life
Enjoying my saturday night with good friends and food now what more could you ask for :D
 
my life hmmm. i'm trying to quit drinking and smoking pot without much luck. as a result of my abuse, my immune system is fucked and i'm sick all the time. my intelligence, sense of humor and capacity for empathy operate at like 15% of what they would be if i was clean (quickly goes back to normal when i detox) and i feel my seasonal depression creeping up on me in a major way.
on the upside i have a good job. i live in an awesome house with 3 really cool roommates. i have a support network that genuinely cares for me and has my back. i'm starting to work with a food rescue program that distributes food that would otherwise go to waste to hungry people. i'm even smitten by a certain goddess who i know i have a strong chance with, but i'm too apathetic to do anything about it. it feels like the only thing that keeps me from giving up is being able to find freedom through dance. i actually have it really good and i feel ashamed that i'm letting such inconsequential addictions hold me back. argh.
 
Quick summary of my life at the moment:
deep depression over ex boyfriends (yeah its dumb but he made me feel complete and now he isnt with me and i feel empty inside)
alot of fighting with anybody tries to have authority over me
 
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