you are already addicted.
when was the last time u went a day without using? 2 days? 3 days? and so on....?
basically, if u havent been skipping 4-5 days in between uses, PSYCHOLOGICAL ADDICTION HAS ALREADY SET IN(le junk, i know u are NO idiot so i am quite suprised you are even posting this). now you just have to look forward to the physical torment too.
also i should mention that people who were addicted to cocaine will find opiates THAT MUCH more alluring....
i started doing cocaine when i was 16, and by 17 i was using up to 2g a day for about 4-5 months.
...THEN I FOUND OPIATES.
at first i did alot like you, used them to help with comedowns/speedballs....basically to enhance my cocaine addiction. then i got really tired of the comedowns from coke, and eventually started taking the opaites(namely hydrocodone) in attempts to still get high but not use coke.
1-2 months later i was at DRs offices trying to score scripts two to three times a month! tussionex too...all of this before i turned 18. then it moved to oxycodone first it was just percocets the 10mg variety popped three to four times a day(alot like u)....then i got a surgery done and had an excess of pills again perc 10s, so due in part to tolerance and pain from the Operation, i started taking 2-4 at once on an empty stomach-BLISS.
healed up, but was still taking pain meds....then i found an OC connect and could afford a good habit.
flashforward a few months and im taking 100mg or more to get high....a few more months its 200mg or more to get high(daily).....a few more months and its at its worse, 300-400mg OR MORE at once, daily....
stayed on that amount for about 5-6 months....then i couldnt afford it anymore and went on methadone maintanance...eventually 110mg per day for 8 months!
got off the methadone at the end of last year(NOV 2006), and have been using fentanyl, oxy, and heroin on a regular basis since
i have nothing really except opiates.
was it worth it? no.
was it fun? HELL YEA
would i do it differently? HELL YEA