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just the right amount of meth

now how tf do u sleep using this drug >.>

bender for 3 days, recover for 3?
You could do the 3 days on, 3 days off I guess. But 2 days on 2 days off would be even better...I mean, 72 hours is a long time to go without sleep, and your body needs it.

I think I am fairly lucky, I have no problem sleeping on meth. So no benders for me. I just stop smoking earlier in the evening, and by nighttime I am out. At most I'll take some Xanax or zaleplon to pass out. Perhaps you could try the same?
 
You could do the 3 days on, 3 days off I guess. But 2 days on 2 days off would be even better...I mean, 72 hours is a long time to go without sleep, and your body needs it.

I think I am fairly lucky, I have no problem sleeping on meth. So no benders for me. I just stop smoking earlier in the evening, and by nighttime I am out. At most I'll take some Xanax or zaleplon to pass out. Perhaps you could try the same?
i've missed 3 nights of sleep in the past 4 days or so, gpt is rly against me using any gear now xd

my best sleep aid is probably promethazine, ima try 50mg tonight and see if it can knock me

i'm going to stop twirling at 1pm today, if i can't get sleep tonight then i'll abstain until i can practice my daily routine and have a clean environment. i don't want to find out what happens when sleep deprivation becomes serious.
 
i've missed 3 nights of sleep in the past 4 days or so, gpt is rly against me using any gear now xd

my best sleep aid is probably promethazine, ima try 50mg tonight and see if it can knock me

i'm going to stop twirling at 1pm today, if i can't get sleep tonight then i'll abstain until i can practice my daily routine and have a clean environment. i don't want to find out what happens when sleep deprivation becomes serious.
Hopefully the promethazine works for ya. Personally it never helped me sleep when doing coke, but maybe it'll work for meth. Yeah you def don't want to go too long without sleep. It tends to make people irritable, aggressive, delusional, paranoid...a lot of negative things associated with meth use are in fact due to sleep deprivation. Not all, of course, but a lot.

And be careful with using gpt to influence your drug intake decisions. I feel like I recently read something on BL where a guy consumed sodium bromide in lieu of table salt bc gpt said to.
 
been a little since I’ve been on here it feels, hoop y’all having a decent night. Hopefully will get some sleep tonight, we’ll see.

Unwinding after afternoon of snorting speed and finally got to go out for the first time in ages, had a good time with friends again, just hope to not wake up to any shit with my mom though

- 1 amnesia haze joint
- 1 silver haze joint
- unknown mg line of diazepam

Really would love me some ket right now, but not worth the hassle. My little sister currently has an extremely religious friend over and uhh yeah, don’t want that to turn into some weird ass situation. Forgot to eat half of today and am now regretting that damn :’)

Uhh yes, sleep or no sleep, I’ll go and just lay comfortably for now, good night fellow bluelighters :)
 
Oohh that’s interesting! I have heard that for some biological men it is kinda addictive in the way steroids are I suppose. For me it hasn’t given me a massive energy boost, definitely slightly higher libido, but nothing crazy, have always been very situational on that part I suppose.

Since the first of month of starting testosterone, I have noticed feeling slightly more ‘comfortable’ in my own brain almost? I’ve also always been massively conflict avoidant and I so far have found T to kind of help with that, has me leaning more towards fight, rather than freeze response if you will, easier to stand up for myself and also feel more protective over my friends for example.

Only part I dislike so far (like 3.5 months on testosterone now??), is the oily skin, made some of my healing piercings get annoyed more quickly and also acne, which is fair because you are putting your body through another puberty in a sense.

For me it’s quite complicated though, as I also am chronically ill, including many hormonal changes with estrogen. There’s very little research on my syndrome in general , but my doctors have noted the % of trans people is way higher for people with my syndrome than compared to the general population, so the ‘feeling more comfortable’ could be both because my brain was better wired for testosterone or because hrt has been helping my gender dysphoria greatly, thus also leading to me feeling more comfortable in general.

I find it a fascinating subject really. In a sense I’d say yeah, it can be ‘addictive’ in the sense that many trans people I know who are getting hrt, are generally way happier and more comfortable in their bodies while on it, and your body eventually gets used to certain hormone levels, so in a sense yes I suppose, but no in the way of addiction often being associated with a spiral where your life only revolves around this one thing.
May I ask what syndrome you have? You dont have to tell me if you dont want but you piqued my interest
 
May I ask what syndrome you have? You dont have to tell me if you dont want but you piqued my interest
Ahh I never mind getting asked about medical stuff much, I was born with the syndrome of McCune-Albright, caused by a random gene mutation.

Whole mouth full, but for me it affects two main things: my bones, specifically the structure of my bone marrow, leading to increased risk of breaking bones / wrong healing broken bones, chronic bone pain and bone tissue growing in places it shouldn’t, which leads to a whole variety of issues.

Second part is a fucked up endocrine system. That part I personally don’t quite get, as it’s extremely complex, but for me it caused extreme early onset of puberty, excess of growth hormones and my body can’t absorb / produce certain minerals & vitamins such as phosphate.

I consider myself ‘lucky’ as I got diagnosed almost immediately when I was 2, living in a country with great healthcare and not having as severe symptoms such as being mobile enough to live relatively normally, except for being unable to do any sports or heavy physical activities. Unless high of course aha.

Though even in that sense I’ve found it fascinating how certain drugs interact with my disorder. Like alcohol I CANNOT handle at all, or even deep K-hole doses of ketamine being unable to stop me from feeling the worst of my bone pain. Only opioids equal to or stronger than morphine have made me fully feel at ease in a physical sense, which is most certainly why I think about and crave opioids extensively.

Could ramble on about all the nerdy science bits, a lot is still unknown as well, especially about my syndrome / meds and illegal drug interactions. Am hoping to at some point in the future be in a better position to be semi-honest about my use with my main doctor at least, for now leaving it at ‘recreational weed use’ for my anesthetist if I need another surgery.
 
Ahh I never mind getting asked about medical stuff much, I was born with the syndrome of McCune-Albright, caused by a random gene mutation.

Whole mouth full, but for me it affects two main things: my bones, specifically the structure of my bone marrow, leading to increased risk of breaking bones / wrong healing broken bones, chronic bone pain and bone tissue growing in places it shouldn’t, which leads to a whole variety of issues.

Second part is a fucked up endocrine system. That part I personally don’t quite get, as it’s extremely complex, but for me it caused extreme early onset of puberty, excess of growth hormones and my body can’t absorb / produce certain minerals & vitamins such as phosphate.

I consider myself ‘lucky’ as I got diagnosed almost immediately when I was 2, living in a country with great healthcare and not having as severe symptoms such as being mobile enough to live relatively normally, except for being unable to do any sports or heavy physical activities. Unless high of course aha.

Though even in that sense I’ve found it fascinating how certain drugs interact with my disorder. Like alcohol I CANNOT handle at all, or even deep K-hole doses of ketamine being unable to stop me from feeling the worst of my bone pain. Only opioids equal to or stronger than morphine have made me fully feel at ease in a physical sense, which is most certainly why I think about and crave opioids extensively.

Could ramble on about all the nerdy science bits, a lot is still unknown as well, especially about my syndrome / meds and illegal drug interactions. Am hoping to at some point in the future be in a better position to be semi-honest about my use with my main doctor at least, for now leaving it at ‘recreational weed use’ for my anesthetist if I need another surgery.
Have you noticed any improvement in symptoms like less brittle bones since taking testosterone? Idk if youre hypermobile also but AAS like testosterone and other steroids tend to help with stabilizing joints.
 
I have been staggering gabapentin doses all day, just 900 mg every hour, and I think I might like it better than taking a huge dose all at once. I was reading on here that taking larger doses of gabapentin actually decreases bioavailability, and the scientific papers say the same. I welter to think how much gabapentin I have probably wasted in my life by talking nightmarishly massive one-time doses! So as day turns to night I have something like 3600 mg in my system. And it feels quite soothing and comfy, like a warm drug blanket in the cold weather.

Smoked the rest of my Xmas fent and meth too. Idk if I even feel like doing those again for a while. Like if they're in front of me I probably would do them, but I do not feel any particular need to seek them out. Instead I want to do some 2C-B and K, and also see if any of my dealers can locate 4-MMC or whatever it's called.
 
I have been staggering gabapentin doses all day, just 900 mg every hour, and I think I might like it better than taking a huge dose all at once. I was reading on here that taking larger doses of gabapentin actually decreases bioavailability, and the scientific papers say the same. I welter to think how much gabapentin I have probably wasted in my life by talking nightmarishly massive one-time doses! So as day turns to night I have something like 3600 mg in my system. And it feels quite soothing and comfy, like a warm drug blanket in the cold weather.

Smoked the rest of my Xmas fent and meth too. Idk if I even feel like doing those again for a while. Like if they're in front of me I probably would do them, but I do not feel any particular need to seek them out. Instead I want to do some 2C-B and K, and also see if any of my dealers can locate 4-MMC or whatever it's called.
Which one do you prefer between gabapentin, pregabalin and phenibut?
 
Which one do you prefer between gabapentin, pregabalin and phenibut?
Gabapentin gives me the best CEVs and the comfiest feeling, perfect for chilling at home and listening to music, writing, or watching movies. for me it is the best of the three.

Pregabalin is a close second. Like gabapentin, it also gives me a wonderous warm feeling and a certain joy in moving around, like I am swimming in pudding. However unlike gabapentin, pregabalin also gives me a feeling of hyperreality,where I notice everything in my environment (normally I am off in my own world and not very observant) and it becomes fun to chat with people and meet new friends. It is more a drug for going out to concerts, bars, and parties in my opinion.

Phenibut, though.ugh. Whenever I took it, I would get utterly lazy and at the same time all the muscles in my body would tense up, it felt like. Plus the next day my brain was always in a fog. Like one time I got lost going from the bus stop to my apartment, a route I had taken countless times. I got none of the good effects that people talked about, and I tried it a good few times at different dosages. Ended up tossing the rest of the bag I bought. for me phenibut is a reminder that people can respond radically differently to the same drug!
 
Gabapentin gives me the best CEVs and the comfiest feeling, perfect for chilling at home and listening to music, writing, or watching movies. for me it is the best of the three.

Pregabalin is a close second. Like gabapentin, it also gives me a wonderous warm feeling and a certain joy in moving around, like I am swimming in pudding. However unlike gabapentin, pregabalin also gives me a feeling of hyperreality,where I notice everything in my environment (normally I am off in my own world and not very observant) and it becomes fun to chat with people and meet new friends. It is more a drug for going out to concerts, bars, and parties in my opinion.

Phenibut, though.ugh. Whenever I took it, I would get utterly lazy and at the same time all the muscles in my body would tense up, it felt like. Plus the next day my brain was always in a fog. Like one time I got lost going from the bus stop to my apartment, a route I had taken countless times. I got none of the good effects that people talked about, and I tried it a good few times at different dosages. Ended up tossing the rest of the bag I bought. for me phenibut is a reminder that people can respond radically differently to the same drug!
Phenibut seems to be hit or miss for a lot of people, I remember liking it a little bit more than gabapentin and pregabalin due to it feeling more ”drunk and tingly” in higher doses. Also tried mirogabalin, a japanese gabapentinoid which I can only describe as a ”different flavored” pregabalin, more stimulating but less visual.
 
I have been staggering gabapentin doses all day,
Outstanding effort, well done. Cp: one of the handful left standing of the old circle of open substance aficionados after nearly two decades of the war (on people and their chemical preferences) will to this day notify me on occasion: "duuuuude I just took 9000**m**g of gabapentin, after I took idk 1/2 a 3-month prescription supply morning this morning [note: that's a lot of gabapentin, just don't] and am feeling NICE," bless her enthusiastic heart. I've stopped expounding on the virtues of staggering.

For my part:
*1.5mg lorazepam, SL
*60mg DXM
*3,600mg valerian (10:1 root extract + whole root... nonsense listing both under one total)
*Triple-shot Johnnie Walker
*Fat cone of Tahoe OG

AT THE BUZZER:
*0.3g street fentanyl, IN [product changed recently, decrease in duration of action and modulation in effect profile and need for substantially increased dosing - feels less like a more efficacious, long-acting fentalogues and more akin to fentanyl proper, alas][aside: also could be the same as it has been, and he stepped it into unrecognizable oblivion...nah]

To celebrate this unexpected development, I resolved another nip of Scotch whisky or two, and to kill off that roach.

**Edit. 9000mg is a lot of gabapentin, 9000g is somewhat more...**
 
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*supposedly, 275mg of 7-hydroxymitragynine, But dosed sublingually and erratically over 8 hours in a pressed dissolvable tablet form from an apparently relatively established brand.

Is this even reasonable? I know the more readily availed literature/data on said substance is rather sparse and weakly putative or even equivocating, and that I have what might be considered by some to have an apocalyptically resilient and cosmologically scaled motherfuckin' love affair with the almighty neurological potential inherent to divers forms and conformations of the atoms. Read: presently and pre-eminently street opioids, id est [sino-Latino precursor-originated] street fentanyl and black tar heroin, intranasally.

But ffs, even if 7-OH mit. were a G-protein-biased partial μOR agonist equianalgesic to morphine at even orders of magnitude below as speculated in some published data (say, .667mg 7-OH mit. to 1mg morphine instead of 13:1 [which is a remarkable estimate]), so long as it has genuine opioidesque character of any sort, I should have expected more from such an exorbitant dose - albeit patiently, nervously titrated. Albeit here I am, only only half way through it - it's the legs and finish that matter most to me anymore, which is why I use intranasally effectively exclusively anymore (instead of IV) for all ROA-appropriate substances, and particularly and exclusively IN when it comes to [street] fentanyl & fentalogues. Chronic pain and anxiety are only truly confined by consistent attenuation, which is why something like genuine pharmaceutical fentanyl is considered inappropriate for a primary non-ER (i.e. transdermal) preparation opioid in the outpatient setting - I love candy but popping an Actiq q. 2-4 hours all day every day is simply no way to live - what with its short duration of action. Though I might suffice it with the exquisite front-loading quality of BTH (or better, preferably), if I still had the venous system and the fresh gear for it. But I digress...

Certainly I should have gained some higher state from use of such a dose of such a substance that is so novel to me with even limited past kratom exposure, and even with near-concomitant fentanyl/fentalogue use? Especially considering the following, but I digress... again? OK, maybe I'm a little high[er] than I thought when I started this post... 45 minutes ago?! Credit where credit is due... Will think further on this opioid alkaloid. But I'm definitely comfortably opioidèd. Ok ok anyway:

*60mg THC/60mg CBD as live resin, per os
*Double shot of Johnnie Walker
*1 x cafe au laît
*60mg dextromethorphan HBr
*8mg chlorpheniramine
*90mg dextromethorphan polistirex
*6mg loperamide (potentiation)
*50mg melatonin, SL
*FAT cone of Tahoe OG + Jack Herer, 2:1 mixed
*2.4% nicotine, vapes throughout

Considering soon a multiday run with 150mg buproprion - SR or ER, can't recall off hand which - thrown in the mix, in the hope of capitalizing off this good substance use effects run over the last few weeks, i.e. a recent reintro to BTH and after a period of opioid abstinence, massive increase in smoked and edible cannabis use, and introduction of 7-OH mitragynine with no complaints as of yet facilitating decent physical function and shockingly improved mood and outlook (in spite of an ongoing 18+ month long existentially-severe depressive bout chock full of still more novel lows and featuring what I have reasoned must have been my first and yet only experience of genuine true despair, and all no less in the deep autumn and unto the dead of winter with a seasonal dysaffect). [But I mean hell, it brought me into a proper Bluelight account!]

Anyway, sorry for the long post in a get-to-the-point thread! It won't happen again, honest. I'll only post when stone-cold raw-dogged sober and have nothing much worth saying!

So far 7-OH gets ≥6/10. Bare minimum. Yes, it's ok, OK? Ok bonne nuit mes amis
 
I'm freaking stooooked! I bought a bit and got him a big deal so he shouted me pipes of meth all night and gave me a fat bag of h that is absurdly good.
Got a bit of meth left probably to smoke and basically all the heroin and enough weed for whatever I'm going to want.

I've had 2 shots of meth tonight, the first one had me panicking for a second coz I must have made it bigger than I thought. Then I had one half an hour ago and that was nice but less rushy so makes sense to toke the rest.

Then when that's gone ill have a small shot of heroin and a Phenergan. Then wait until the morning for my big boy shot and cones or a joint. That will be nice.
 
I had a mid-size scoop of red kratom (I don't weigh it, just eyeball) as I'm trying to taper over the next three months for a trip to Ireland, without making me miserable as fuck at work and losing too much sleep. Managed to cut from 4 teaspoons of white at work per night to 3 teaspoons so that's good. Shame kratom isn't legal across the pond though.

I've got to flip my sleep schedule upside down over the next four days to change shifts at work so I'm gonna take a 3-4 hour nap till noon or so, then try to stay up till 9-10pm, then conk out with some red kratom and some etizolam. Maybe some weed as long as I keep it light.

.5mg alprazolam in a few minutes when I crawl into bed.
 
Happy new years guys, my nightly fix for the new year is just a korean menthol cigarette and hope for a good year.


I hope all of you are staying safe today, I get reminded each year of all the overdoses that happen around this time. Take care of yourselves and those close to you ❤️
 
I just had a speedball(heroin + coke) and think I may have had my first bellringer. I've shot a fair amount of coke but never noticed a bellringer effect but I just dissolved some crack with vinegar and water and put around 0.1g of very high quality heroin in. As I got myself I started hearing the ringing everyone goes on about but I didn't feel the coke that much.

I had been using a ton of meth too so I may just be fried. I know I'm high but it's not super noticeable. And now it's worn off to just the heroin(which I love btw) . I've shot coke 10 or so times and a few of those times I was very high but no bellringer.

How do you do it without dying? I'm scared of coke but so intrigued by it when IVd or smoked but I want one good rush from coke(& hopefully heroin too) before I forget about it coz it's so expensive here the chance of me forming a habit is very small.
But I'll give it one more go. I'll get 1/2g of both. Take a couple of kpins before for anxiety and heighten my seizure threshold. And do 0.2g heroin with 0.125g coke and see how that goes...what does everyone think? I have a tolerance to meth so I don't know how the cross tolerance will play a part.

I want to get high shooting coke and not die!!!
 
I just had a speedball(heroin + coke) and think I may have had my first bellringer. I've shot a fair amount of coke but never noticed a bellringer effect but I just dissolved some crack with vinegar and water and put around 0.1g of very high quality heroin in. As I got myself I started hearing the ringing everyone goes on about but I didn't feel the coke that much.

I had been using a ton of meth too so I may just be fried. I know I'm high but it's not super noticeable. And now it's worn off to just the heroin(which I love btw) . I've shot coke 10 or so times and a few of those times I was very high but no bellringer.

How do you do it without dying? I'm scared of coke but so intrigued by it when IVd or smoked but I want one good rush from coke(& hopefully heroin too) before I forget about it coz it's so expensive here the chance of me forming a habit is very small.
But I'll give it one more go. I'll get 1/2g of both. Take a couple of kpins before for anxiety and heighten my seizure threshold. And do 0.2g heroin with 0.125g coke and see how that goes...what does everyone think? I have a tolerance to meth so I don't know how the cross tolerance will play a part.

I want to get high shooting coke and not die!!!
Hey there. Felicitations on this bounty of psychoactives. You know, I always wanted to bang a sexy OG speedball at the ticking on into the whatever the next new year. I figured mathematically that eventually it would have to just so happen I was IVing diacetylmorphine and cocaine while it was approaching midnight on a December 31st, or I'd literally die trying my best. Shockingly, it has played out otherwise - a totally unforeseenwise, in fact - and I'm just here still, with little prospect of succeeding in that bizarrely Sisyphean death-wish endeavor now. Partly in choice, part chance, part through luck itself incarnate, but still mostly on account of who knows the fuck what. What with darwinism so last millennium. But before that digression too...

That is to say, on speedballs, to start: IVing coke seems to have a more pronounced potential problem on the fronts of diluent/contaminant/actual effective dose of delivered cocaine hcl, in my estimation. I.e. how pure is your coke? Good luck finding out in practice, of course. What psychoactive/bioactive/totally inert bullshit is in there? Do you happen to get something with shades of all three undesirable effects like levamisole and at a weight of more than the cocaine? Are you getting something off a brick your plug just found demoing drywall at his uncle's stash house upon inheriting it this month, and it's some vacuum-sealed fine ass 90% cocaine hcl anhydrous fishscale from 1982? Too bad about how the other 9.999% is staph aureus and some wicked strep pyogenes variant because in its journey to you, it spent 3 years leavening in a very Floridian portable outdoor toilet receptacle belonging to a clan of local swamp people, and long story short the packaging DID puncture slightly but the product was ultimately "recovered" and nominally rehabilitated before reaching your plug's uncle's guy and eventually you.

I.e., when you say 0.125g coke, do you mean 125mg cocaine hcl? If you don't lose any (0%) of that fixing it up, and you don't miss any (0%) part of the shot, and you happen to have had a hefty shot of glass not long prior, then you may still be an IV coke novitiate, but I'll nominate you an IV pro of mythical proportion and bare-knuckle fisticuffs anyone who says otherwise.

So you just IV'd pretty much 125mg of cocaine hcl. Ambitious. The odds are in your favor you'll be kissing god momentarily one way or another, if just for a moment. That sound you hear after the kick in your throat is you from the inside so to speak - that near-instantaneous cardiac royal flush of soaring blood pressure/heart rate and changing rhythm translate a literal message to the structures of your ears. If that's your thing, nice. Like an actual explosion, entirely contained within your own body. Fuck, that can't be good.

But wait, you mention shooting crack - does that mean this is 125mg of crack will be prospecting for cocaine?

Anyway, point is: IV coke has caveats IV meth doesn't. Foremost: purity and thus estimating your actual dosage. You might expect a point of shard from a trusted consistent source to contain a large % of actual methamphetamine, while the same of coke might be less likely, even from that same source, simply on account of things like it's easier to mix drywall and anything else into a while powder and get away with it. Dark times we live in.

But if you're acutely co-administrating h (surely not 200mg diacetylmorphine from a .2 either in practice), and possibly recently IV'd meth, with a kpin prelude, holy shit you're making this hard. Remember what we are considering here: a speedball. It is intentionally a roll of the dice, I think. What do you get when you mix opposing forces? How about a doubles match?

The dose: I do think that might be a little ambitious, whether you go with just the speedball or have meth/benzos in the mix. Are you simply seeking to experience a bellringer? Then I'd use the coke in isolation (and h and/or clonazepam later?). Set on a groin-punch of a speedball? I'd as methodically as possible work up to it from seriously cautious doses. Treat the alchemy you are pursuing with respect. I'd one-and-done it for the day, too - seriously diminishing returns, driven by pure compulsion. I recall I settled on q t.i.d. And, .1 and .1 would be a max starting point for me for decent gear but a low tolerance/limited experience with not only the combination but it seems each individually?/good health.
 
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