Last night I go ahead. I will write short post cause when I write long I touch a button so
all post is gone.
Well Last night I took:
900mg lyrica
3-4 lines amphetamine paste
10mg lorazepam
210mg methadone
70mg methadone injection
To prepare the injection I love 140mg. I used three bottles of 70mg to make a 5ml syringe.
Lots of drug on the table due the trembling of my hands. I had to prepare the solution cause there are só much water in the solution that the hospital gives to me. So the thing is to evaporate the solution of methadone-water. It Was difficult cause I was trembling so much and mix spills over the spoon. I tried with soil but it was a bad solution, the water drop to the table. 2 layersof foil and the water didnt stands, the water drop and drop, I could't understand why because no holes and the líquid didn't keep in the foil recipient.
It was horrible. I tried to absorve the liquid from de table It was hard to do it, given that I Was drugged with the drugs written above, speedy trembling hands. I dont know how can I shoot with this syringe. Its tunned by me. Its 5ml with long needle so I put tape in needle so you just can puncture the half of the needle, IT makes shooting easier. Well ASK IF YOU WANT TO KNOW SOMETHING.
Bueno Bye Bye gyals & boys!!!
LOTS OF
❤
elaboratesI have a sticky thread that on my bladder damage saga in the psychedelic forum you can read.
I'm a bit better today with a lower pain level so the suicidal ideation and urge to use heroin disappears when the pain goes down.
Today I havnt taken any pills yet. I took enough methadone last night I can still feel it working.
The hardest part is missing out on so much of life. I went from being very athletic and full of life and traveling etc. to never leaving my apartment for anything at all just working all day out of boredom.
Luckily I have a wife to love, that's all I have left besides a good job I can do from home most of the time. I've disowned my entire family and best friends for other reasons so really my wife is the only person I've had a real conversation with in years.
The setting is perfect for a decent into real opioid abuse....for some reason I dont give into though because I've done it in the past and know that it will blow up in my face if I go down that road again....but given intense enough pain for a sustained length of time, I will definitely make the choice to start using fentanyl or heroin again, wanting to die but being to cowardly to kill yourself leaves fentanyl addiction as a feasable option
Don't do It man. You have such more experiences in your life, off course I'm not talking of more drug experiences I'm talking about many kinds of experiences, there are so much time and go for a wilderness experience, work experience could be a reason to profit your job. We are here for something.
I’m back? Found my stash
Currently on:
10g sons
8mg Xanax
Wooow 8mg xanax It's a Bigues dose. Do you take this dose everyday?
