Dude you can do it!
I remember the first time I took amp. I stayed awake through the night on a tiny amount. No stress, no anxiety, just wonderment, empathy, feeling ALIVE. And of course, because I kept fucking with it (it was fucking me, more like) it started to ruin my life.
A couple months ago I had next to no confidence that I'd ever be comfortable in this new life. A life devoid of benzos, alcohol, and stimulants. I mean, that was my shit man. I absolutely loved starting the day with a bang, that intense, empowered and cool feeling of amphetamine making you a superhero. Then, when it wore off, I would cover the comedown with several milligrams of a high-potency benzo, and after I decided to quit the benzos, with several drinks, relaxing in style. But to be honest dude, I wasn't getting anywhere. I had few friends, my relationships were few and of poor quality, and I was very symptomatic. No shit. All i cared about was drugs.
Today, I wouldn't trade this sober life for anything. But it took well over half a year to get here. Well, I still use caffeine and nicotine, a couple supplements, and of course medication, but I'm growing in all ways and I can't even fucking believe it. There's a pot of gold at the end of the rainbow my friend!
