Had to get a ride to the clinic this morning by some girl who I used to middleman dope to and it felt kinda weird reminiscing about some of our old shenanigans. She's up to 110mg though and was surprised that I get by day to day on 40mg of methadone. Also woke up hungover this morning. Have to stop doing that to myself.
wake and bake
coffee
40mg methadone
Also had about 2 cigarettes and 1 glass of wine. Lucky my boss is a good guy haha, he's already hassling me for a line.Hey effect I recognize u from the mass thread, I wouldn't go up anymore dude honestly I just came off 95 and it was fucking horrible. I used to think everyone was full of shit but it takes forever. I started to feel a little shitty once I got under 60 then after 30 it got worse, I jumped off at ten just cuz I felt like a dick going for my last 5 and felt absolutely horrible for a solid 2 weeks and then still shitty for another week. It's been a while now and I still can't sleep for shit.
And plus occasionally I would want to try and get high and I would literally shoot a whole gram to feel it.
Methadone saved my ass when I needed it but I seriously advise no one to go over 60. And don't stay on the shit forever. I financially detoxed cuz i was short money for 2 weeks and they detoxed me so I got kinda defensive and said fuck this I'm not paying shit if there going to just drop me. I'd already been on it for 3 years anyway. So I went down 5 a day.
One myth I'd like to dispel tho after a month or so I got a molar pulled and got some hydros thinking they wouldn't do shit (and I was really in pain) so I took 50mgs and felt pretty fucking good. It feels good to have a normal tolerance again. And the thing with methadone is u don't really realize how high u actually are. And honestly the worst thing for me is it killed my sex drive, everything worked I was just so tired all the time I never even felt like it. Now I bust in about 30 seconds but hopefully that goes away :/ lol. Seriously tho when I got off it i went through like a second puberty. Oily face eating a shitload and everything. It's crazy how ur body bounces back.
But ya anyway
Wake and bake and coffe for me
Hey really appreciate the input man, it means a lot coming from one who has already been there. And yeah, I have no intentions on raising my dose, but I wouldn't not raise my dose if, after careful thought, it seemed like the best option to get me through my probation.
Wake and bake rip
40mg methadone
Iced coffee