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šŸ¤ Cultural šŸ¤ What Was Your Morning Fix v. Hit The Bottle & Go Right To The Rock

5mg oxycodone
0.1mg clonodine
5mg lexapro
8mg zofran accidentally was going for 4mgs but my gf didnā€™t hear me and gave me the whole one haha oops
About to add some ketamine
And a nicotine patch
 
Had 2 fantastic shots of meth last night, thoroughly enjoyed the effects.
Now the sun has come up, its cold and the effects are wearing off so im about to have a nice fairly large shot of heroin and 3mg of Xanax. And a THC edible. My day is set to be lovely an chilled.

5 minutes to pure bliss, I would never do stims without downers for the next day and its times like this that im so grateful for setting that rule.
 
I had the shot of H about 45 mins ago with the xanax(though they are counterfeit and im fairly sure they are clonazolam, not sure of the dosage. They used to be etizolam but the taste is too strong to be the old etiz fakes)
Ive had whats has just become apparent is a damn strong THC edible lol and im getting more and more faded and out of it with every minute that passes. I think the combo of the benzo and the weed is hitting pretty decently hard and im definitely becoming what id consider to be completely wasted lol was not expecting the edible to be even nearly this strong oops! Thank god the benzo hasnt fully hit yet.
I feel quite nice though. Think its time for some chill tunes, a lay back in bed and just to enjoy one of my favourite and very rarely enjoyed highs I have the privelige and luck of having the oportunity to experience.
Thank god for benzos, opiates, THC and to a lesser extent meth. Time to go enjoy some of the peace that is almost never a part of my life and the euphoria I have a night home alone and can not have to feel like a bad influnce on my partner and focus on the fact that tonight all of my responsiblity is on me, whatever i have done falls onme and only me and I can just enjoy my comedown with heroin and benzos without feeling like im at fault and a bad influence for allowing him to engage in the same things I am. I know its all bullshit and they have a mind of their own but I feel like such a piece of shit using heroin and benzos then they want to partake which I have no say in but it still feels like my fault. Tonight its just me and I can leave all tht bhind and just get high and worry about myself.
 
the_ketaman said:
im fairly sure they are clonazolam
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As a benzo enthusiast who very intensely feels the difference between benzos, I'm glad to come upon somebody else who can feel them out! How would you characterize clonazolam versus other benzos? I've personally used alprazolam, flualprazolam, bromazolam, phenazolam/clobromazolam, diazepam, bromonordiazepam, etizolam (so fucking much), clonazepam, and a million random street benzos back when I was 13-21 y/o. Clonazolam was around me a lot in high school, and I used to pop bars that said "clam" on them thinking it was just a silly press, not realizing it was indicative of likely being clonazolam. My memory of it was something along the lines of "duration of clonazepam, hits harder than alprazolam, feels better than diazepam". How would you personally characterize it?
 
Doing bad
900mg gabapentin
Green tea extract
100mg caffeine
Ashwaghanda
Theanine 200mg

I feel like dog shit

God I wish I had a shot of heroin

Iā€™m kinda glad itā€™s gone tho
So many relapses avoided because of fentanyl
 
helpingout said:
Oh Iā€™m sick off stopping 7
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Never tried 7oh, it's not as easily available here. Probably better..
I'm tapering opioids currently and learned a lesson today.
Morning meds were:
100 mg Tilidin
150 mg Pregabalin
60 mg dxm
Vitamin C high dose
Spoonful of BSO
100 mg Caffeine
... Made me feel drunk all morning and didn't know why... Then I looked up dxm+ pregabalin and knew why šŸ™„. I found another mix that should absolutely be avoided especially in combination with an opioid šŸ˜ƒ... Oh well. Lucky I could still drive and yes it did help with the WD... But can't recommend it.šŸ˜…
 
Today the only substances Iā€™ve taken

Cbdweed with CBD isolate.
200mh theanine
100mg caffeine
1 green tea rxctract capsule
300mg mag gly

Still not going to pick up

Iā€™ve experienced all the misery. Iā€™d like a refund on my opiate slavery subscription model
 
Good day to all, been a while since Ive posted here! busy as FUCK with work....also been sick the past 3 days :(
anyways..
in the morning, 75mg venlafaxine and 50mg IV morphine
picked up dilaudids before work, shot 8mg before my shift.
at 12:30 i shot 54mg Ritalin and another 6mg hydromorphone
and ive been ripping my dab pen all day Lol

Have been doing less/decreasing how much opioids i use, hopefully i can stay doing that. Also took a break from stims since my last post, today is the first time ive shot any stimulant since whenever i last mentioned doing that. It hit me extra nice today...
Hope everyone is well!!!!
 
375mg Bupropion SR
300mg Gabapentin
Large Mocha

Had a doctor appointment and am very pleasantly surprised by how it went. The appointment was to discuss how the prazosin is going and if it's helping my ADHD. It's been helping PTSD but worsening my ADHD. He actually suggested starting Methylphenidate which surprised me considering my addiction issues. I thought he'd make me try Atomoxetine but I guess not. I think that he just realizes that my symptoms are bad enough that it warrants traditional treatment. He recognizes that untreated ADHD is probably one of, if not THE main cause of my depression and anxiety, which I have suspected for years. He just said we'd start at a low dose of Concerta. I didn't ask the dose, but I'm assuming that it's 18mg. I'm sure I'll eventually work up to 54mg or 72mg. Sounds like he'll be open to the idea of amphetamines but wanted to try this first due to my past amphetamine abuse, which is fair. It's nice to find a doctor for once who's willing to do what's necessary to help me live a decent life despite my past actions
 
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SuperPsych said:
375mg Bupropion SR
300mg Gabapentin
Large Mocha

Had a doctor appointment and am very pleasantly surprised by how it went. The appointment was to discuss how the prazosin is going and if it's helping my ADHD. It's been helping PTSD but worsening my ADHD. He actually suggested starting Methylphenidate which surprised me considering my addiction issues. I thought he'd make me try Atomoxetine but I guess not. I think that he just realizes that my symptoms are bad enough that it warrants traditional treatment. He recognizes that untreated ADHD is probably one of, if not THE main cause of my depression and anxiety, which I have suspected for years. He just said we'd stat at a low dose of Concerta. I didn't ask the dose, but I'm assuming that it's 18mg. I'm sure I'll eventually work up to 54mg or 72mg. Sounds like he'll be open to the idea of amphetamines but wanted to try this first due to my past amphetamine abuse, which is fair. It's nice to find a doctor for once who's willing to do what's necessary to help me live a decent life despite my past actions
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Just a quick no/ yes answer if you don't me been wanting a answerdor awhile.Does Bupropion SR give you that oomph. Like and internal energy wanted to do stuff and get them and enjoying it. Sorry weird question Maybe, if you want to. Give rough break down on it and what it have you feel you lacked.. it's that void..
 
Coffeeshroom said:
Just a quick no/ yes answer if you don't me been wanting a answerdor awhile.Does Bupropion SR give you that oomph. Like and internal energy wanted to do stuff and get them and enjoying it. Sorry weird question Maybe, if you want to. Give rough break down on it and what it have you feel you lacked.. it's that void..
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Bupropion doesn't give me that oomph or motivation to get things done. I still procrastinate on it constantly. Though when I am engaged in an activity I'm better able to pay attention and not lose focus. I've been doing far better on Bupropion than off of it in terms of ADHD symptoms but it certainly doesn't cover all of my symptoms. My plan is to slowly replace bupropion with a stimulant which is also what it seems my doctor has in mind once we find a dose that I respond well to.

I mean it was night and day when I first started bupropion. Felt life changing. I guess that I did have some motivation initially but it's since worn off. Still doing better on than off. Have been playing with going up to 450mg but I haven't noticed an increase of focus or motivation. So I'm sticking with 300mg. My doctor is switching me from SR to XL. So I'm gonna do the bupropion XL (Don't know if he prescribed 150mg or 300mg) and add on the Methylphenidate XL to see if it helps. Got another appointment with him in early October and we'll see how things are going then.

Edit: I feel that I should specify. Before the Bupropion, I would procrastinate simple things like making appointments, or doing dishes or laundry, to the point that it's been a detriment to myself. Now that I'm bupropion, it's easier for me to get up and juts get the stuff done for the sake of not worrying about it anymore. I don't feel motivated to do it, and I still procrastinate a bit, but I'm able to make myself do it. I just now procrastinate for an hour or more. Maybe a day or 2 if it's making a phone call that gives me anxiety. Before the bupropion I would procrastinate everything in life for days to weeks to months. The bupropion has honestly been life changing. It doesn't cover all of my symptoms but its been a great start. I forgot what feeling semi-normal felt like
 
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