Sp4rky
Bluelighter
Good morningg, I donāt think I slept, I honestly donāt remember but miraculously I feel pretty alright. Tired, but in a chilled out way.
Added 2 bumps of K and some more vaped weed to the 50mg O-DSMT, 10mg deschloroetizolam and 1mg phenazolam mixture of yesterday.
Honestly slightly scaring myself with the amount of comfort I feel combining drugs I could fall asleep and never wake up again on. Almost feel ashamed that despite having such lovely friends who would always be there for me and having so many things to look forward to currently, I still would prefer to just not exist at all.
Had a good time tho, sometimes I just need to float around my little bubble of bliss, ketamine always inspires me in strange ways I find.
Uhh yeah, still tired as fuck, might do a little speed today, but weāll see. I want to at least keep my daily stim use low, as I want to be able to rave good when I move out. Mmm I miss xtc, will be hard deciding on which event to āspendā the monthly xtc roll I allow. Am considering either taking xtc or trying acid for the first time on my 19th birthday, but it depends on the situation. I would want a good setting for both options and to not make my non-druggie friends uncomfortable yk?
I think my stoner friends would be fine tripsitting and I might know some people who would also want to trip with me, then I can do the MDMA at whatever fun music event hppens around my birthday with my rave friends, especially this one girl, have a feeling weāre similar types of degenerates if that makes sense.
Man, I am still able to ramble somehow while dehydrated, hungry and all the letters on my keyboard seem be flying away due to exhaustion lol :ā)
Anyways, I wish all my fellow bluelighters a nice day
Added 2 bumps of K and some more vaped weed to the 50mg O-DSMT, 10mg deschloroetizolam and 1mg phenazolam mixture of yesterday.
Honestly slightly scaring myself with the amount of comfort I feel combining drugs I could fall asleep and never wake up again on. Almost feel ashamed that despite having such lovely friends who would always be there for me and having so many things to look forward to currently, I still would prefer to just not exist at all.
Had a good time tho, sometimes I just need to float around my little bubble of bliss, ketamine always inspires me in strange ways I find.
Uhh yeah, still tired as fuck, might do a little speed today, but weāll see. I want to at least keep my daily stim use low, as I want to be able to rave good when I move out. Mmm I miss xtc, will be hard deciding on which event to āspendā the monthly xtc roll I allow. Am considering either taking xtc or trying acid for the first time on my 19th birthday, but it depends on the situation. I would want a good setting for both options and to not make my non-druggie friends uncomfortable yk?
I think my stoner friends would be fine tripsitting and I might know some people who would also want to trip with me, then I can do the MDMA at whatever fun music event hppens around my birthday with my rave friends, especially this one girl, have a feeling weāre similar types of degenerates if that makes sense.
Man, I am still able to ramble somehow while dehydrated, hungry and all the letters on my keyboard seem be flying away due to exhaustion lol :ā)
Anyways, I wish all my fellow bluelighters a nice day
Holla, die Waldfee! no more freezing and soaking through my clothes every 3-4 hours, yaayy!! 
, thanks for the enlightenment... And damn I also wanna meet Lucy again soon 
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